Quotes of the Day .

"If you can success in overnight, the world would be unfair."

"Every drops of your tears, is a beginning of your laughter."

Steven

love.

Hye 2009, goodbye 2008 .

2009 is getting closer. Just another 241 hrs to go to complete my mission that i commit early month ago. Ah cuaknya ! But i believe that i can complete it by Jan 2009. Impossible is Nothing (pinjam tagline Adidas sbg perangsang. hehe.) I realize that sekarang ni aku suka berckp bersendirian. Either to motivate or to calm myself. weirdo. Td lps mkn, i stood in front of my aquarium and said, "ikan, kau pn tlg doakan utk aku skali ye. Kalau aku berjaya, aku akan beli aquarium lg besar utk kau." Ntahlah knapa aku ckp mcm tu. Tapi aku percaya doa ikan utk aku pn bole dimakbulkan. I'll do my best.

Anyway, as 2009 pn dah dekat, i did some wishlist and azam baru to give me more energy to work on a new book.

• Buy new formal suit. I need one.
• Qualify myself to IME Macau.
• Bring mama & ayah umrah. (April/May 2009)
• To be cmq by April 2009.
• Travel to Boracay Island. (May 2009)
• Visit NZ, Angah's Graduation Day. (Dec 2009)

Have lots more to list. But those above are some of the highlights. I wish 2009 will lead me to better living and bring me more happiness to me and my family. Oh not to forget, sy harap sy dpt special BF pd June 2009. LOL. Aminnn ~ (hee. :P)

love.

A Walk To Remember .

Today i realize that life can be STRANGE .
They have good and bad in so many ways.


Today i know life is BEAUTIFUL .
I'm glad that at least i could playback the memories with someone i miss for long time.


And today i will say life is UNCONDITIONAL .
i know that life is kind and they gv you chance to rewrite your journey tape as long as you believe.


Sometimes i thought life is cruel and unfair. Aways murmured why ppl's like this and that. I was arrogant. So arrogant until i nearly lost a friend who was beside me all the time. But well, everythng happen for reasons. Like i said, life is love which unconditional. They gv you sthng without any limits. Whether good or bad, there's always reasons behind that.

Today, i'm glad that my friendship between me and Syaz is back to normal. :) Yes, after 2 tahun kami senyap membawa diri masing-masing. I realize after what we had before is just a short pause for me to learn my mistakes. We actually complement each other. It's just me yang extra ego. hehe. After all, i wouldn't let myself losing my precious thing again.







love.

Undiscovered .

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
But I can't find the words you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for me

And I
I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

You Make It Real - James Marrison

love.

In Love !

with Robert Pattinson a.k.a Edward Cullen in Twilight (2008) .

He is absolutely admirable. hot. sexy. haha. I i know it's lame. But look at his eyes, just say it all.

*eheh, cakap macam kenal dan pernah berjumpa je. haha ignore me for seconds for this !* :P

love.

Annual Dinner 2008 .

On 6th December, me and my family had a splendid annual dinner at Gen Restaurant, The Legend Hotel as usual. Great foods, happy moments, large spaces, and lots of gifts ~ Oh the greatest thing was this time, we had a room for 8 pax. It's really a huge room, with nice view. We had Japanese Buffet and for me it's worth for money eating here instead of eating at Sushi King. It's only available on Thursday until Sunday and it's for Rm69.00 per pax. Seriously for japanese food lover, you should try this as the food range is really good. From various sushi, sashimi to soba, tempura, and desserts. Oh you name it ! Sume adaa. :P

I've been waiting for so long. hehe. For this year, i received Issey Miyake perfume and Sembonia high heels from mama and ayah, A set of perfume from Elizabeth Arden from K.ngah, a Puma bagpack from K.lang, and a pair of flat shoes from adik. Thanks guys. It was really a special night.

from our room.

love.

The 'What If' .

What If,
You fall, do you know who gonna help you out? and how far they could help you?

What If,
There' nobody to help you out, do you think you can survive alone?

What If,
You think you can survive but actually you dont? Because you never really brave enough to take the risk?

What If,
You knw the risk that you might take could lightened you up, are you ready to take the step which out of your comfort zone?

What If,
There're so much objections?

What If,
You have take the risk, and you've prepare for everything, but the things you think's gonna work out turn up side down? How you gonna handle it?

What If,
You give up?

***********************************************************************************

Hmm, i've think a lot of that 'what if' questions lately. Every problem have the solution. All i have to do is how to turn the words to actions. It's hard, but it's not impossible. I know. I inspired by this quote from Pay It Forward (2000) movie that i watched last night with my team mate. Really give a big impact.

"Some people are too scared or something to think things can be different. The world’s not exactly…shit. I guess it’s hard for some people who are so use to things the way they are-even if they’re bad- to change and they kinda give up and when they do, everybody loses"


love.

My Saving Grace .

My confidence level started to hit the low level again. :(
God. Give me strength to fight it.
I really need it. Really want it. I know i can achieve it.
But i need the strength to move on and on and on without any hesitation.




Ya Tuhan, permudahkan segala kerjaku dan bukakan pintu hatiku..



love.

The day when i thought life's easy, but it's not.

and makes me realize that, never predict life.

Been bz for the past few week. Last week, i get MC for 3 days due to heavy fever and swollen tonsil. For the whole 1 week i was absent from classes, and there's a lot of things i need to catch up. Math, one topic; Electromagnetic subject, one topic. A LOT, i mean. sheeshh. Next week, i need to really ready for the next work task. to close 1 source, and 1 friend. feww. Am i really ready to commit? and to accept the reaction from others? i hope so.

Last week's task was the beginning. At first, it was really hard as i never did that before in my life. I was struggling to complete it. And glad that i'm able to complete it in 4 days. As that was the first time doing it, i start with a prediction and assuming. I almost gave up as i didn't receive any good achievement in day 1. I met my leader and ask for the consultation. She told me just do it without any prediction and assuming. Never judge things, before you ever start it. So i tried again. and i can't believe that i'm able to complete it within the next 3 days. End of the day, it really taught me about reality of life and people around me. And with this task, i know now what to take, what to avoid, how to prepare, and why never predict life and people. Yes, never predict.



To live life, is to do something you never do before in your life. Then, you will able to see the real world. That's the biggest thing i learned.


love.

Jika Mungkin .

Awan, something is bothering me now. Aku mcm tk percaya apa yg k.ngah cakap tadi. He only have a certain period of time to live? Are you joking? No no. It can't be ...... terdiam.


Awan, betul ke? Ya Tuhan, tapi kenapa begitu cepat? Aku masih belum berjaya. Aku masih belum sempat memberikan dia kegembiraan, membalas segala jasanya. Kenapa begitu cepat...? Aku masih belum bersedia ...


Ya Tuhan, jika betul apa yg diberitahu oleh manusia itu. Aku masih tidak percaya. Ya, tidak. Aku percaya hidup dan mati itu, di tangan Kau, satu-satu nya Penguasa Alam. Berikanlah sedikit lagi masa, untuk aku membalas segala jasanya. Berikanlah aku sedikit lagi masa untuk aku menyayangi dia. Tuhan, aku merayu. Aku masih memerlukan dia. Jika mungkin, selama aku hidup. Jika mungkin, biarlah aku pergi sebelum dia. Tuhan, Kau lebih mengetahui segala-galanya. Berikanlah sedikit masa lagi.

......

love.

Sunshine !

and they ARE !

They're always there, when i'm in sorrow.

They're there, when i'm happy.

We share the laughter.

We share the joy.

and I heart 'em all.

love.

Warkah Hati .

Jika hati menjadi medan peperangan,
Maka ranaplah jiwa dan raga
Jika aku bandingkan cinta engkau dan Dia,
Terbukti jauh langit dan bumi bezanya.

Aku bersendirian berbicara sama awan sekali lagi,
Teman yang paling setia ciptaan Dia
Sambil memujuk hati untuk senyum kembali,
Oh awan, yakinkan aku bahawa ini hanya dugaan, bukan selamanya.

Walau setiap degup jantungku, kau sesakkan,
Aku tetap menunggu, setia menanti kepulanganmu
Namun setiap saat, setiap janji yang kau lafazkan,
Kau biarkan ianya hangus hingga menjadi debu.

Oh awan, aku sudah penat menangis
Jiwa habis punah dipijak,
Apakah hati ini akan selamanya dihiris
Atau perasaan ini akan selamanya disinis?

Kini, aku lebih merasakan cinta Dia adalah cinta abadi.
Bukan seperti kau yang hanya ada nafsu di hati.
Separuh jalanku dibiarkan mati dipintu neraka.
Separuh lagi akan aku serahkan pada yang Maha Esa.


Oh awan, bisakah kau mencari pengganti untuk menemani hatiku?
I'm no angel.

Zawani Zakaria

love.

Picture of Life .

More than just Life.

Pernah beberapa kali aku menggesa dia utk berhenti membuat Graffiti dan hanya tumpukan kepada photography. Namun dia enggan. Well, i couldn't say anything. But after awhile, he himself announced openly that he gonna stop writing Graffiti. I was curious but at the same time, i'm kinda happy. Masa berlalu, tapi sehingga hari ini, he's still active being a writer of Graffiti. No matter how people critics about the Graffiti arts, he continue it as a passion. Now i see Graffiti for him is just more than life. Not just for fun, but he write for soul. Later i found this quote,

Painting is just another way of keeping a diary.
Pablo Picasso




And now, i understand. :)



love.

heart Graffiti .

The making of . .
the Meeting of Character Nov 2008.


Mile09







A80's
Mile09
They

Special thanks to,

Fik & Ayie
Mal (Mile09)

Oh this one, taken by Fik. Terima kasih utk foto ini ya !


I had a really great day. Watching them writing on the wall, color the characters and make it till it's satisfy them. It's fun ! Some of the writers who was there are, http://www.artthey.com/ (They), http://mile09.blogspot.com/ (Mile09), A80's, writer frm Swiss, New Zealand and many more. Macam terpegun pun ada. hehe. Well, i hope to see they doing their "bombing" again next time. Thanks yaw ! :P

More pictures at : www.flickr.com/photos/blissfulaniz

love.

Yoga, my way of self-improvement.

National Fatwa Council to make a ruling on yoga - The Star Online

Personally, i'm totally disagree with it. Yoga is not a religion ! Yoga bukan satu kepercayaan smpai boleh memesongkan akidah seseorang. It's a complete form of exercise. The most important benefit of Yoga is, physical and mental therapy. It's not just keep our body flexible, detoxifies and rilex, it's really improve one's breathing system.

I've been practising it about 2 yrs, and the outcomes is obvious. I had asthma, and after all, i can see the difference in my breathing and improving my asthma time by time. Betul tk tipu ! My friends dulu ramai tertanya, Yoga ni betul2 beneficial ke? Tengok movement mcm sume slow motion je. Aha, walaupun kebanyakan movement in yoga pose agak slow, but when it combine with the correct breathing technique, you will see the obvious result. With regular practise of asanas (body position), pranayama (breathing technique), it will improve your flexibility, massage your inner organ, joints and ligaments, tone your muscles, improve respirations problems and lots more. You can read other the benefits of yoga here. (click !)

Yoga diharamkan hanya kerana ia dikatakan bole memesongkan agama. Sgt tk masuk akal. It's just a complete form of exercise and meditation. Jauh sekali dengan kepercayaan mahupun agama.

I have read this one artical in Yoga Life magazine (June-July 2008), it's written,

"Yoga has also been accused of being a “launching point” to export Hinduism. This is very interesting, considering the large numbers of Yoga practitioners who are not Hindus. For fundamentalist Hindus that believe Yoga and Hinduism cannot be separate, sorry to break the news, but it has already happened. Yoga was interpreted in many ways by a variety of cultures and partial facets of Yoga have grown independently. Some Hatha Yoga styles do not even practice meditation.

Yoga students outside India, pick and choose what they want to learn from Yoga. At this time, physical mastery seems to be most popular. This is why Yoga teachers outside India focus primarily on physical health. Many western students think only of Hatha Yoga, when they hear the word “Yoga.”

This is why Yoga cannot really be controlled, regulated, or patented. How do you control people’s thoughts, actions, physical practice, prayers, meditation, or songs? The whole concept of controlling Yoga is ludicrous.

The real problem with Yoga, for the fundamentalist of any religion, is that it can be practiced by anyone from any religion. Yoga is not exclusive: The laws are universal and interchangeable with every religion. This allows a Yoga practitioner to work independently on his or her spiritual health and work toward enlightenment.

What is wrong with working toward the common good? The idea of working toward enlightenment and self-perfection are considered blasphemy to some. However, can you imagine a world where men and women did not try to improve themselves?

The objectives of Yoga are complete heath, self-improvement, self realization, and tranquility. With these benefits acquired any Yoga practitioner can help others and work for the common good."

Kesimpulannya ?

You see, even the Christians said, it's not a religion. Ya, sy tak samakan Islam dgn Christian. Tapi Islam sendiri tk mengharamkan sesuatu yg bagus dan beneficial utk umatnya. Solat dan Yoga, mmg sgt berlainan dari segi niat. Tapi in term of body position, sy tk dpt nafikan, sebenarnya, mmg lebih kurang sama. You can read the artical about it here. Theyogainstructordiaries. Sy sebagai Muslim ada kewajipan yg mmg sy tunaikan spt solat and so on. Yoga doesn't memesongkan my akidah at all. Practising yoga is just to improve my health and self-awareness. So does with other Yoga practitioners. So what's wrong with the Majlis Fatwa Kebangsaan tiba-tiba nak mengharamkan Yoga? Saya harap mereka dpt membuat kajian lebih terperinci sebelum membuat apa-apa fatwa. Aih..



love.

You wanna Know? So i tell you.

For the moment of truth.

I am doing okay. Yeah, at least.

I am, yes, still missing someone that burned me up some times ago. Sayang? Mungkin. . Aku bodoh? Biarkan.

I am trying to get rid of everybody. Not because i'm stress. I need my some times alone.

I am depressed. Because of past relationship people around me. Dunia menjadi pentas lakonan semata. Aku? Kau? Kita semua. Tak mengira sesiapa, walau sedara mara kita atau darah daging kita sendiri.

I am lying to you. Yes you. Bukan aku sengaja. Tapi untuk menjaga hati kau jugak. Being too honest? Not anymore. Untuk apa? Jika diri sendiri yang akan makan hati balik.

I am abused. I mean, i was sex emotional abused. My friends asked, "kenapa kau tk nak cari BF skrang?" Answer? BF bukan untuk dicari and i need to build a balanced life for now.

I am okay, . Yeah, again. I am okay. I'm steady. Talk about patience, for yrs, i've been patient enough. Been hurt enough. But here i am, still standing on my own feet. I'm blessed.




So, now you know how it feels to be me? It's good, you know.. I'm emotional, yes i am. And i believe, common sense is a gift from The Above, The Greatest. Whatever i do, back to one thing, my common sense. Shall i, or shall i not. And yes, my practical judgment may not same as you. That's the differences. Ppl's envy, hating, critics. You're most welcome. Because we have feeling, emotion that you couldn't resist. We're just human.


"Sekarang ini, musuh kau hanyalah minda sendiri." - Zahiril Adzim.


listening to : Im the lucky One - Anuar Zain

love.

We're in yoga cover magazine !

perasan ! :P




love.

Truly Madly Deeply .

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Soulmate, Natasha Bedingfield

love.

Kugiran Matahariku .

Oh malam
Bawaku terbang jauh
Agar aku dapat bersama si dia
Agar aku dapat melihat senyumannya
Namun apakan daya
Dia hanya ilusi
Dia bukan milikku.

Sunshine,
I will give you everything
All of my life
If only you could be mine

Tidak dapat ku sembunyikan rasa
Pabila kau di depan mata
Aku hanya terkedu
Aku merindu
Namun apakan daya
Dia hanya bayangan
Dia bukan milikku.


Zawani Zakaria



love.

Raya 2008 in Action .

Raya tahun ni agak tak best. Sebab?

• I had my final exam starting from raya ke-5. It's sucks. really. With mood of raya mix with the stress of the exam, there's no way for me to concentrate. :P
  
• Tahun ni paling sket dpt duit raya. Ah tk bestt.
  
• Tak bnyk pegi beraya rumah sedara and pegi open house.
  
• Raya tahun ni lg skali tk ckp ahli, sbb K.ngah tk dpt blk. :(
  

But well, at least this raya walaupun exam, i still berkesempatan to do the Makan-makan Raya. Eventhough tk brape ramai yg dpt attend di sebabkan hal masing-masing, it's quite meriah. Thanks to those who came. :) These are some of the pictures taken during sepanjang Syawal.

Family Potrait (During 1st Raya)

The Siblings

During 1st Raya

Us with unyang

With Bee, Sya, and Qase (During my Makan-makan Raya)

During Makan-makan Raya

Us !


love.

Otak Letih. Jiwa Kacau dan apa lagi lah.

and i can't concentrate on my study ANYMORE !

tapi esk exm. tsk tsk.

:(

take me to the beachhh ! yeah, my sweeet escape.



love.

Sempurna .

Sering aku bertanya pada Tuhan,
Adakah ini akan berlanjutan,
Hati ku terus dinodai,
Apakah tiada jalan penyelesaian.

Sering aku bertanya pada diri sendiri,
Apa sebenarnya hidup ini,
Bergelimpangan dengan dosa, aku takut.
Adakah aku masih bisa diampuni.

Andai ku bisa mengubah masa,
Ingin ku ubah masa-masa lepas.
Tapi aku bukan tuhan untuk menentukan segalanya,
Aku hanya mampu menadah, agar hidup ini lebih indah dengan keberkatan-Nya.

*****************************

Believing the grass would be greener,
From the past, i learnt to be better,
For someday i know life won't be the same,
Sun will shine again, and tomorrow will be new.


Zawani Zakaria

love.

Soal Hati .

Kadang hati berkata,
Aku masih mampu.
Tapi bila jiwa meronta,
Aku sedar, aku hanya itu.
Bila kau sesekali menjengah,
Aku keliru..

Jika aku punya hati,
Mengapa kau punya benci?
Jika aku ada cinta,
Mengapa kau masih sendiri?

Redha, hanya itu yang ku mampu.
Mungkin ini hanya dugaan.
Untuk esok aku masih tidak tahu.
Aku hanya berserah kepada Mu, Ya Allah.
Lindungilah aku daripada keraguan.
Keraguan yang bisa menjatuhkan aku ke dalam lubang dosa Mu.


Zawani Zakaria


love.

Best ke ada BF?

This morning, i had breakfast with my 3rd sister, K.lang. While eating, we had plain conversation. And i suddenly,

"Best tak ada boyfriend?"

K.lang terdiam.

"Best ke?" I asked.

"Best? Best tu tak sesuai term die." She replied.

"Dah tu? Seronok?" I asked again.

Then, she replied,

"Taklah.."

"Bahagia."




Both of us tiba-tiba senyap. and laugh.



love.

Selamat Hari Raya !

Jika ada salah dan silap atau terkasar bahasa, maafkan saya.

Berhati-hati di jalan raya ye !

Selamat Hari Raya to all !

love.

Colours of My Life .

:: Tagged by Hid ::

Name 5 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questionnaire underneath until you write the names of all 5 people. This is a lot funnier if you write the names randomly. No Cheating!!


1. Mal
2. Qase
3. Bee
4. Rafiq
5. Greg


Question 1 : How do you meet 1?
>> We both worked as part timer at Secret Recipe. It was 2006. :)


Question 2 : On the Scale od 1 - 10, how you rate your relationship with no 1??
>> hmm 7? he's been a good listener to me. eventhough we're not really close now.


Question 3 : How long have you known number 4?
>> about 2 months.


Question 4 : How do you know number 3?
>> from a friend. she always been there for me. :)


Question 5 : Where is 5 ?
>> err, i don't hv any idea.


Question 6 : A Fact about number 1?
>> He's a very outgoing person. and very creative.


Question 7 : Who is no 4 going out with?
>> his fiance. Going to married soon eh afiq? dont forget bout my duit rayaaa. :P


Question 9 : Would you live with number 3?
>> aha why not eh bee? hehehe.


Question 10 : What do you like about no 2?
>> she's a very good friend, caring, and she's a shoulder to cry on. thanks Qase. :)


Question 11 : Do you miss number 5?
>> hmm not really. kadang2 je terfikir how he deal with his new life. though i shouldn't think bout it pon.


Question 12 : Would you make out with number 4?
>> with who? afiq? no no. tunang org maa. :P


Question 13 : What is your opinion of number 2?
>> she's fun, funny and serious at the same time. haha. We're kinda same eh Qase? :P


Question 14 : What is your fave memory with number 5?
>> Spent time with him and took pictures for his group at Putrajaya.


Question 15 : What would you do if number 1 going out with number 2?
>> err. Qase with Mal? Qase kalau kamu nak kuar bsama Mal, sy tk kesah. really. hehe. :P


Question 16 : ever had a long conversation with number 5?
>> yes.


Question 17 : have you ever slept at number 2's house?
>> At her Rawang's hse tk penah lg. but at cyberjaya, yes.


Question 18 : Do you hang out with number 3 often?
>> yepp, almost every week. :P


Question 19 : Who do you known the longest?
>> cik Qase.


Question 20 : How often do you talk to number 1?
>> Dulu sgt selalu. but now, very occasionally.


Question 21 : What about number 2?
>> depends. kalau die tk bz, everyday pn mesti berchatting. :D


Question 22 : Have you ever thought 3 more than a friend?
>> with cik Bee? more than a friend? a big noo. hahah.



Question 23 : May be you want to go out for a date with number 5?
>> now? i don't think so. We're just friend.


Question 24 : Do you dream about number 2?
>> yeah, i had a dream about her last month. hehe.


Question 25 : What did number 4 did to you that you never forget?
>> he taught me a lot about photography thngy. yeah, soul of photography bebeh. ;)


Question 26 : What have you done to number 1 that he never forget?
>> hmm. a lot, i thnk. let just us keep it. :)


Question 27 : What is number 3's hobby?
berkerja, berkaraoke, writing, and emm ape lg eh bee? hehe.


Question 28 : Who do u want to tag?
Sara, Fikri, and Keyon.



love.

Hati ini .

Hati .
ingin terus memahami.
juga ingin turut difahami.
namun terlalu penat mengolah.
terlalu penat mendusta.

Aku .
masih di sini.
terus mengorak langkah.
jauh, tapi tak ke mana.
penat dan lelah.
namun ku terus kan juga.


Zawani Zakaria


love.

and Me .

I don't possess heart, but hate .

Cause that's what you taught, and it'll stick.

I'm sorry, but i can't change.

It's been so hard for me to keep the pain,

to preserve the patience from damaged.

'Jiwa Kosong' was just a mirror statement.
To reflect what you've been missing and fouled.

***********
Untuk mu, *a* .

Aku berdosa dgn Tuhan kerana membiarkan mu.
Membiarkan mu hanyut dan alpa dgn permainan hidup mu.
Aku menangis, kau tahu?
Aku kesal, dgn apa yg terjadi.
Aku kesal, dgn perubahan sikap mu.
Aku mengharapkan kau utk menemani ku.
Aku ingat, kau dpt mendidik dan membimbing ku.
Tapi kau dah jauh.
Jauh dpd jalan asal mu.

Ya Allah, ampunkanlah dosa aku dan dia.
Aku tahu aku salah.
Aku berdosa kerana membiarkannya.
Aku sedar aku lemah dgn godaannya.
Berikanlah aku kekuatan.
Berikan aku kekuatan utk melawan kelemahanku.
Ampunkanlah dosaku, Ya Allah.

Kau, sedarlah yg kau telah terlalu leka dan jauh.
Aku, sedar aku bukanlah terlalu bagus.
Aku bukanlah terlalu sempurna utk menegur kelekaan mu.
Tapi kerana sayang ku,
Aku tidak mampu melihat kau semakin alpa dgn permainan mu.
Maafkan aku jika kau marah, merungut tentang gmbr kelmarin.
Maafkan aku.



Ikhlas,
Zawani Zakaria

love.

You Are .

a Picture speaks a thousand Words.

love.

Kerna Ku Sayang.

Kamu .

10 seconds .

g : hey, can i ask u some personal question?
w : aha yes?
g : i think bout this all the time, were you in love with me?
w : u think?

dear Mohd G,

Nice chatting with u past few days ago. I'm not sure what's ur intention actually, maybe it's just came though ur mind tibe2, i dont know.. But i think u're too honest. Too honest that makes me sick, too honest till i questioned ur true meaning of ur honesty. Yea, it's true dat i never regret of whatever thngs that happen in my life. But there're thngs that we never wanna get through it again, or ever think about it again. It's like a paranoid. But u can't blame.

I hv nothing to say here. It's just, if u wanna talk about us or our memories, let's just keep to ur heart. I admit my mistakes of not being patience to wait for "us", the relationship. But at the same time, i gotta say, that i'm glad that it's over. So many things happen between us that makes me think, and realized what's good for me and what's not. Sudah la with all the blame. There's no one to blame. It's all done. We're moved on. There's nothing more to say bout the past. Let the memories fade away slowly. You can save ur question above to ur heart alone.

I just hope u're really ready to face the future coming as u become a Muslim and future husband. Yea, especially as a Muslim. May Allah guide u to the right path, and open ur heart. If u hv doubts anything about islam, u could ask. I'll try to help. Selamat Berpuasa to u. May the blessings of Allah be with you in this blessed month. Amin.



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Sweet Escape !

;; Tagged by Sara

- State 15 weird things/ habits/ little known facts about yourself.


- The 10 people I tag are to then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts.


- No tag backs (as in once I’ve done this, please don’t tag this exact tag again.)


1. I am lefthanded. Lefthanded rules bebeh !


2. I am clouds watcher ! i lovee to watch sky and clouds moving. Even it slow, i just addicted to it.


3. I eat junk foods. When i get tensed and bored. Chachos and cheese nachos are my favourites !


4. I am friendly. Why? tk percaya? I know my face looks serious and fierce. But trust me, i can be soo talkative and laugh a lot.. :P


5. I love singing. Even my voice doesn't sounds sweettt. Like i care? :P


6. Wearing socks when i sleep. I felt more comfortable and safe.


7. Adore Jessica Alba's abs. Working out for that. *in my dream* haha.


8. I am Cleo and Female's die hard fans. Never miss to buy it. :P


9. I am emotional. So just bare with it and accept me for who i am. ehe.


10. Flip Flop. I wear it to almost anywhere. Got to say, i don't like heels either.


11. I do yoga. At least once a week, because i love my body, walaupun perut sy buncit sedikit. hahaha.


12. I lovee camera. Love to snap pictures, and take pictures of myself too. Oh vain? I am vain SOMETIMES.


13. I DON'T like dark ! Yes, i need light when i sleep. lampu kecik pn jadi laa..


14. Believe in my intuation. In most of the time and most of the things.


15. I loveee beach. So much that i can spend my time alone there, doing my own thing. Ohh can't wait for the next trip ! Boracay anyone? :)



I have limited of friends to be tagged, so i just tag :

1. Hid
2. Bee
3. Syma
4. Keyon
5. Afiq



Selamatt Berpuasa everyone !


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Fireworks (part 1) .

Last two night was a blastt ! had a very very great nite. Me, Afiq, Wan, Jeph, and 3 other Afiq's friends went to PICC for MIFC 08. They reached there about 5.30pm, and i reached about 1 hour later. It was raining all day long. But like Wan said, "kita jd photographer redha jela..". haha. So, we stayed, sambil bermain hujan dan menunggu dgn sabar for the fireworks. Sharp at 10pm, the fireworks started. Luckily, hujan berhenti kjp for about 10 mins , and everybody was so happy. and i, was sooo amazed with the fireworks. Smpai lalai nak click the camera. hehe. But it's not for long, hujan kembali lebat with angin yg agak kuat. And they still ain't gave up at all. Overall, the fireworks was great, i had so much fun with them, and they taught me lots about fireworks' shooting. Thanks a lot guys ! Can't wait for next session !

For more pictures, go to : www.flickr.com/photos/blissfulaniz




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My Body, Heart and Soul .

Currently i am,

Having very very bad flu which i hate soo much .
Heartbroken and emm tak yah la bg tahu kenapa .
Empty heart, lonesome .
Depressss sbb kalah tournament.
Glad to have my dinner with my parents and adik.
Blessed and still smile.
Optimistic about the things i see ahead .
Tired and i need more rest .

Craving for cookies and jamocha almond fudge ice cream.

Missing my lil Aqil, and family gathering.

and i just ..
need VACATION and sweet ESCAPE !




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Benci !

uhhh !

Why you hv to be dis complicated?
Why can't you be even abit kind and polite to me?
please !
I'm giving up on you now.
I can't stand anymore.
You just makes me sickk !
Do u knw that?
I'm restless, sleepless.
Just because of YOU !
Ohh please Mr. matlab,
Be kind, easy.
and i promise i'll be good to u.
Promise, i will.



ahh, mengantukkk. -_-



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Can't smile without you !

What a wonderful day. Thing i love most about today;

Y i had so much fun, hang out with my closest friend, Bee, K.ina, Hid and Sya. Lama tk bergelak ketawa dgn mereka ! We went makan-makan, gelak lg, bergossip, amik gmbr bnyk-bnyk, mkn lg. :D i'll definitely miss u guys after dis. u guys bright my dayy !

Me and Hid

Hid, me and K.ina

Models wannabe ! hehe. L-R: Bee, Me, Hid, K.ina

Y i met Syikin yg merindui sy. hehe. sy juga merindui anda. kebetulan terjmpa cik syikin di Pavillion bersama Kerry, Tumi dan rakan-rakan.

Y had my J.crown Donatello ! and bought some for my mom yg dh lama craving for J.co too. hehe.

Y i'm so happy to get to know that, Greg, peluk islam. Alhamdulillah. I'll pray that Allah will always guide you to the right path and to be a good Muslim. In'Allah..




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