Summary of May .

Hooray ! my finals just end last thursday and i'm free frm stdy-stress for this time being (at least for a month! haha). So many thngs happen in this month. ups and downs, love and break-up, laughter and tears. .

The most exciting activity this month was the trip to Perhentian. It was my 3rd time going there, and i think this is the best. I went there with Bee and k.Ina. Well-planned, is the most important factor. Lucky for us, we went there early of the month and it wasn't that pack yet as end of the month. We stay at Abdul Chalet and i was surprise with the rate, quite cheap (RM70 for triple sharing). We went there for 4D/3N, with free and easy activity. I feel so refreshed, with the beautiful scenery, and calm breeze. Damn, i just miss that moments now! The food there wasn't that expensive (range, rm4-rm15 for food), and the best thing is, we had our meal while enjoying the view of sunset and star everyday! Snorkelling is a must! get tanned or so called tam is a pleasurable. hehe. And the most important thing is, we had so much fun there.

4 days later, i had my final exm. haha. crazy? i am. i went Perhentian 4 days before my finals. But then, it works, it's refreshed my mind and for me to get back on track. i had so many miserable moments before and Perhentian helps me a lot. :)

Love and Break-up? well, it wasn't really a break-up cause we don't really have a real relationship. i do loved him, but i guess we don't belong together. So there's no way to work things out. Maybe he said, we ain't really have a thing. but for me, it was a special thing, even it's a small thng. We argue a lot, this and that, but then, i try to take it in positive way. Eventhough it's hurt. But believe me, the waiting period isn't that hurt, as the moment he said "go and find another man, i'm just a jerk." it's like a torn in my heart. i know it's just a reason. Well, u should tell me that earlier, before i fallen deep into u. Maybe i was wrong, to take ur words seriously. I didn't bare in mind that nothing last forever.

So many unexpected thing happen for reason. And all i can say it's for us, to have a lesson learned. Life is a long path, and i should be glad that my family and friends are still there for me when i'm fall and guide me through the journey. thanks. I won't frown but smile. I will try to get myself into the steady state back. :)

And now, i just can't wait for the trip to Redang end of this month! to get tam, again! oh ya, what is tam actually? tam is hitam ! hehehe. i enjoy myself with travelling and photographing thingy. it's just me. wanna be a beach girl? come n join me. hehe.



Till then, love. :)

love is like a 5 bucks for you.

you don't care about it when you hv everythng around.

you don't even notice it's existance.

you ignore it because you know you still hv ten 50 bucks in your purse.

but when you're broke, you knw how big 5 bucks is.

without it, you can't even eat.

and only u struggle to find it.

and only u appreciate how big the value is.

but at that time, maybe nothing left for you.

love doesn't come easily.

it need struggle to get it, the patience to hold it.

appreciate while it still there.

don't waste a chance, because you don't even know if you have the second time.

so before it's too late, please. don't let it fade and gone like how you use your 5 bucks.

because my love ain't same with your 5 bucks .

jauh .

tmrw is my first paper of my FINAL EXM !
and .. i feel so exhausted and stress.

i wish i could fly high to the sky.
and .. live peacefully in the paradise.

now i'm torn and breathless.
and .. i hope u're gone and forget the past.

i don't know if this is right for me to continue.
because .. right now, i just can't feel you like i used to.

can't deny u still on my mind and still dream about u.
but .. i know, u just gone and 'jauh' ..

:(

i need my pokka !

My Butterfly .

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly, I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand, to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise


I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You've given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me
When you're ready to land


I can't pretend these tears
Aren't overflowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly


Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
My Butterfly ..



Butterfly - Mariah Carey