A good start for 2009 !

Oh first of all, Happy New Year ! Yess, i hv a very good start for 2009. Why? I had a very bad flu since 31st Dec 2008, and it drag until today. I hate ! and today is the worst. My whole body ached, and fever. Great isn't it? Well actually, it was my fault. On 1st Jan 2009, my SYN colleague, Hafiq asked me to join them playing sport at Cyberjaya Community Center. I thought it was a good start for 2009. I was quite excited since dah lama berehat dpd bermain bdmnton. (ceh, mcm pemain berjaya je !). I had flu that time, yet still very energetic (faham-faham jela..) to join them. Since everyone planned to play futsal, i asked my friend Yana (used to be my partner for bdmnton double or in malay called, beregu game) to join me.

So we met at MMU library at 4pm and walked to the Community Center. We started to play at 5pm until 6pm. Surprisingly, selsema mcm tiba-tiba hilang masa bermain. But then after 15 minutes, tk tahula kenapa, i felt so dizzy and my eyes mcm steamm je. I started to felt the body aching. Damn, ni mesti sbb dh lama tk work out. huhu. Tu salah satu reason nye. Second thing, i didn't do proper warm-up before playing. And third was, i realize actually, i was forcing my body very hard during the game while my body is weak. Selain dpd itu, since i stop yoga stretching 3 months ago, i can feel the differences in my body strength especially on my stomach muscle. uhu. Whenever i did skipping or any sports je, sakit-sakit badan. Haihh. I know why, there's no continuous exercise in my routine. :(

So, another resolution for 2009. I need to change (the same one as 2008. huhu). Start my work out every morning and eat hearty breakfast. Simple. But need a strong courage to have it continuously. Ok, i need to stop writing now. My body ached dh makin menjadi-jadi plk rasanya.

My last words: keep ur words, and make it happen. There's no easy way to change, but the sweetest thng will only come for those who never gving up.


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Quotes of the Day .

"If you can success in overnight, the world would be unfair."

"Every drops of your tears, is a beginning of your laughter."

Steven

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Hye 2009, goodbye 2008 .

2009 is getting closer. Just another 241 hrs to go to complete my mission that i commit early month ago. Ah cuaknya ! But i believe that i can complete it by Jan 2009. Impossible is Nothing (pinjam tagline Adidas sbg perangsang. hehe.) I realize that sekarang ni aku suka berckp bersendirian. Either to motivate or to calm myself. weirdo. Td lps mkn, i stood in front of my aquarium and said, "ikan, kau pn tlg doakan utk aku skali ye. Kalau aku berjaya, aku akan beli aquarium lg besar utk kau." Ntahlah knapa aku ckp mcm tu. Tapi aku percaya doa ikan utk aku pn bole dimakbulkan. I'll do my best.

Anyway, as 2009 pn dah dekat, i did some wishlist and azam baru to give me more energy to work on a new book.

• Buy new formal suit. I need one.
• Qualify myself to IME Macau.
• Bring mama & ayah umrah. (April/May 2009)
• To be cmq by April 2009.
• Travel to Boracay Island. (May 2009)
• Visit NZ, Angah's Graduation Day. (Dec 2009)

Have lots more to list. But those above are some of the highlights. I wish 2009 will lead me to better living and bring me more happiness to me and my family. Oh not to forget, sy harap sy dpt special BF pd June 2009. LOL. Aminnn ~ (hee. :P)

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A Walk To Remember .

Today i realize that life can be STRANGE .
They have good and bad in so many ways.


Today i know life is BEAUTIFUL .
I'm glad that at least i could playback the memories with someone i miss for long time.


And today i will say life is UNCONDITIONAL .
i know that life is kind and they gv you chance to rewrite your journey tape as long as you believe.


Sometimes i thought life is cruel and unfair. Aways murmured why ppl's like this and that. I was arrogant. So arrogant until i nearly lost a friend who was beside me all the time. But well, everythng happen for reasons. Like i said, life is love which unconditional. They gv you sthng without any limits. Whether good or bad, there's always reasons behind that.

Today, i'm glad that my friendship between me and Syaz is back to normal. :) Yes, after 2 tahun kami senyap membawa diri masing-masing. I realize after what we had before is just a short pause for me to learn my mistakes. We actually complement each other. It's just me yang extra ego. hehe. After all, i wouldn't let myself losing my precious thing again.







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Undiscovered .

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
But I can't find the words you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for me

And I
I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

You Make It Real - James Marrison

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In Love !

with Robert Pattinson a.k.a Edward Cullen in Twilight (2008) .

He is absolutely admirable. hot. sexy. haha. I i know it's lame. But look at his eyes, just say it all.

*eheh, cakap macam kenal dan pernah berjumpa je. haha ignore me for seconds for this !* :P

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Annual Dinner 2008 .

On 6th December, me and my family had a splendid annual dinner at Gen Restaurant, The Legend Hotel as usual. Great foods, happy moments, large spaces, and lots of gifts ~ Oh the greatest thing was this time, we had a room for 8 pax. It's really a huge room, with nice view. We had Japanese Buffet and for me it's worth for money eating here instead of eating at Sushi King. It's only available on Thursday until Sunday and it's for Rm69.00 per pax. Seriously for japanese food lover, you should try this as the food range is really good. From various sushi, sashimi to soba, tempura, and desserts. Oh you name it ! Sume adaa. :P

I've been waiting for so long. hehe. For this year, i received Issey Miyake perfume and Sembonia high heels from mama and ayah, A set of perfume from Elizabeth Arden from K.ngah, a Puma bagpack from K.lang, and a pair of flat shoes from adik. Thanks guys. It was really a special night.

from our room.

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The 'What If' .

What If,
You fall, do you know who gonna help you out? and how far they could help you?

What If,
There' nobody to help you out, do you think you can survive alone?

What If,
You think you can survive but actually you dont? Because you never really brave enough to take the risk?

What If,
You knw the risk that you might take could lightened you up, are you ready to take the step which out of your comfort zone?

What If,
There're so much objections?

What If,
You have take the risk, and you've prepare for everything, but the things you think's gonna work out turn up side down? How you gonna handle it?

What If,
You give up?

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Hmm, i've think a lot of that 'what if' questions lately. Every problem have the solution. All i have to do is how to turn the words to actions. It's hard, but it's not impossible. I know. I inspired by this quote from Pay It Forward (2000) movie that i watched last night with my team mate. Really give a big impact.

"Some people are too scared or something to think things can be different. The world’s not exactly…shit. I guess it’s hard for some people who are so use to things the way they are-even if they’re bad- to change and they kinda give up and when they do, everybody loses"


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My Saving Grace .

My confidence level started to hit the low level again. :(
God. Give me strength to fight it.
I really need it. Really want it. I know i can achieve it.
But i need the strength to move on and on and on without any hesitation.




Ya Tuhan, permudahkan segala kerjaku dan bukakan pintu hatiku..



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The day when i thought life's easy, but it's not.

and makes me realize that, never predict life.

Been bz for the past few week. Last week, i get MC for 3 days due to heavy fever and swollen tonsil. For the whole 1 week i was absent from classes, and there's a lot of things i need to catch up. Math, one topic; Electromagnetic subject, one topic. A LOT, i mean. sheeshh. Next week, i need to really ready for the next work task. to close 1 source, and 1 friend. feww. Am i really ready to commit? and to accept the reaction from others? i hope so.

Last week's task was the beginning. At first, it was really hard as i never did that before in my life. I was struggling to complete it. And glad that i'm able to complete it in 4 days. As that was the first time doing it, i start with a prediction and assuming. I almost gave up as i didn't receive any good achievement in day 1. I met my leader and ask for the consultation. She told me just do it without any prediction and assuming. Never judge things, before you ever start it. So i tried again. and i can't believe that i'm able to complete it within the next 3 days. End of the day, it really taught me about reality of life and people around me. And with this task, i know now what to take, what to avoid, how to prepare, and why never predict life and people. Yes, never predict.



To live life, is to do something you never do before in your life. Then, you will able to see the real world. That's the biggest thing i learned.


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Jika Mungkin .

Awan, something is bothering me now. Aku mcm tk percaya apa yg k.ngah cakap tadi. He only have a certain period of time to live? Are you joking? No no. It can't be ...... terdiam.


Awan, betul ke? Ya Tuhan, tapi kenapa begitu cepat? Aku masih belum berjaya. Aku masih belum sempat memberikan dia kegembiraan, membalas segala jasanya. Kenapa begitu cepat...? Aku masih belum bersedia ...


Ya Tuhan, jika betul apa yg diberitahu oleh manusia itu. Aku masih tidak percaya. Ya, tidak. Aku percaya hidup dan mati itu, di tangan Kau, satu-satu nya Penguasa Alam. Berikanlah sedikit lagi masa, untuk aku membalas segala jasanya. Berikanlah aku sedikit lagi masa untuk aku menyayangi dia. Tuhan, aku merayu. Aku masih memerlukan dia. Jika mungkin, selama aku hidup. Jika mungkin, biarlah aku pergi sebelum dia. Tuhan, Kau lebih mengetahui segala-galanya. Berikanlah sedikit masa lagi.

......

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Sunshine !

and they ARE !

They're always there, when i'm in sorrow.

They're there, when i'm happy.

We share the laughter.

We share the joy.

and I heart 'em all.

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Warkah Hati .

Jika hati menjadi medan peperangan,
Maka ranaplah jiwa dan raga
Jika aku bandingkan cinta engkau dan Dia,
Terbukti jauh langit dan bumi bezanya.

Aku bersendirian berbicara sama awan sekali lagi,
Teman yang paling setia ciptaan Dia
Sambil memujuk hati untuk senyum kembali,
Oh awan, yakinkan aku bahawa ini hanya dugaan, bukan selamanya.

Walau setiap degup jantungku, kau sesakkan,
Aku tetap menunggu, setia menanti kepulanganmu
Namun setiap saat, setiap janji yang kau lafazkan,
Kau biarkan ianya hangus hingga menjadi debu.

Oh awan, aku sudah penat menangis
Jiwa habis punah dipijak,
Apakah hati ini akan selamanya dihiris
Atau perasaan ini akan selamanya disinis?

Kini, aku lebih merasakan cinta Dia adalah cinta abadi.
Bukan seperti kau yang hanya ada nafsu di hati.
Separuh jalanku dibiarkan mati dipintu neraka.
Separuh lagi akan aku serahkan pada yang Maha Esa.


Oh awan, bisakah kau mencari pengganti untuk menemani hatiku?
I'm no angel.

Zawani Zakaria

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Picture of Life .

More than just Life.

Pernah beberapa kali aku menggesa dia utk berhenti membuat Graffiti dan hanya tumpukan kepada photography. Namun dia enggan. Well, i couldn't say anything. But after awhile, he himself announced openly that he gonna stop writing Graffiti. I was curious but at the same time, i'm kinda happy. Masa berlalu, tapi sehingga hari ini, he's still active being a writer of Graffiti. No matter how people critics about the Graffiti arts, he continue it as a passion. Now i see Graffiti for him is just more than life. Not just for fun, but he write for soul. Later i found this quote,

Painting is just another way of keeping a diary.
Pablo Picasso




And now, i understand. :)



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heart Graffiti .

The making of . .
the Meeting of Character Nov 2008.


Mile09







A80's
Mile09
They

Special thanks to,

Fik & Ayie
Mal (Mile09)

Oh this one, taken by Fik. Terima kasih utk foto ini ya !


I had a really great day. Watching them writing on the wall, color the characters and make it till it's satisfy them. It's fun ! Some of the writers who was there are, http://www.artthey.com/ (They), http://mile09.blogspot.com/ (Mile09), A80's, writer frm Swiss, New Zealand and many more. Macam terpegun pun ada. hehe. Well, i hope to see they doing their "bombing" again next time. Thanks yaw ! :P

More pictures at : www.flickr.com/photos/blissfulaniz

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