My Saving Grace .

My confidence level started to hit the low level again. :(
God. Give me strength to fight it.
I really need it. Really want it. I know i can achieve it.
But i need the strength to move on and on and on without any hesitation.




Ya Tuhan, permudahkan segala kerjaku dan bukakan pintu hatiku..



love.

The day when i thought life's easy, but it's not.

and makes me realize that, never predict life.

Been bz for the past few week. Last week, i get MC for 3 days due to heavy fever and swollen tonsil. For the whole 1 week i was absent from classes, and there's a lot of things i need to catch up. Math, one topic; Electromagnetic subject, one topic. A LOT, i mean. sheeshh. Next week, i need to really ready for the next work task. to close 1 source, and 1 friend. feww. Am i really ready to commit? and to accept the reaction from others? i hope so.

Last week's task was the beginning. At first, it was really hard as i never did that before in my life. I was struggling to complete it. And glad that i'm able to complete it in 4 days. As that was the first time doing it, i start with a prediction and assuming. I almost gave up as i didn't receive any good achievement in day 1. I met my leader and ask for the consultation. She told me just do it without any prediction and assuming. Never judge things, before you ever start it. So i tried again. and i can't believe that i'm able to complete it within the next 3 days. End of the day, it really taught me about reality of life and people around me. And with this task, i know now what to take, what to avoid, how to prepare, and why never predict life and people. Yes, never predict.



To live life, is to do something you never do before in your life. Then, you will able to see the real world. That's the biggest thing i learned.


love.

Jika Mungkin .

Awan, something is bothering me now. Aku mcm tk percaya apa yg k.ngah cakap tadi. He only have a certain period of time to live? Are you joking? No no. It can't be ...... terdiam.


Awan, betul ke? Ya Tuhan, tapi kenapa begitu cepat? Aku masih belum berjaya. Aku masih belum sempat memberikan dia kegembiraan, membalas segala jasanya. Kenapa begitu cepat...? Aku masih belum bersedia ...


Ya Tuhan, jika betul apa yg diberitahu oleh manusia itu. Aku masih tidak percaya. Ya, tidak. Aku percaya hidup dan mati itu, di tangan Kau, satu-satu nya Penguasa Alam. Berikanlah sedikit lagi masa, untuk aku membalas segala jasanya. Berikanlah aku sedikit lagi masa untuk aku menyayangi dia. Tuhan, aku merayu. Aku masih memerlukan dia. Jika mungkin, selama aku hidup. Jika mungkin, biarlah aku pergi sebelum dia. Tuhan, Kau lebih mengetahui segala-galanya. Berikanlah sedikit masa lagi.

......

love.

Sunshine !

and they ARE !

They're always there, when i'm in sorrow.

They're there, when i'm happy.

We share the laughter.

We share the joy.

and I heart 'em all.

love.

Warkah Hati .

Jika hati menjadi medan peperangan,
Maka ranaplah jiwa dan raga
Jika aku bandingkan cinta engkau dan Dia,
Terbukti jauh langit dan bumi bezanya.

Aku bersendirian berbicara sama awan sekali lagi,
Teman yang paling setia ciptaan Dia
Sambil memujuk hati untuk senyum kembali,
Oh awan, yakinkan aku bahawa ini hanya dugaan, bukan selamanya.

Walau setiap degup jantungku, kau sesakkan,
Aku tetap menunggu, setia menanti kepulanganmu
Namun setiap saat, setiap janji yang kau lafazkan,
Kau biarkan ianya hangus hingga menjadi debu.

Oh awan, aku sudah penat menangis
Jiwa habis punah dipijak,
Apakah hati ini akan selamanya dihiris
Atau perasaan ini akan selamanya disinis?

Kini, aku lebih merasakan cinta Dia adalah cinta abadi.
Bukan seperti kau yang hanya ada nafsu di hati.
Separuh jalanku dibiarkan mati dipintu neraka.
Separuh lagi akan aku serahkan pada yang Maha Esa.


Oh awan, bisakah kau mencari pengganti untuk menemani hatiku?
I'm no angel.

Zawani Zakaria

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Picture of Life .

More than just Life.

Pernah beberapa kali aku menggesa dia utk berhenti membuat Graffiti dan hanya tumpukan kepada photography. Namun dia enggan. Well, i couldn't say anything. But after awhile, he himself announced openly that he gonna stop writing Graffiti. I was curious but at the same time, i'm kinda happy. Masa berlalu, tapi sehingga hari ini, he's still active being a writer of Graffiti. No matter how people critics about the Graffiti arts, he continue it as a passion. Now i see Graffiti for him is just more than life. Not just for fun, but he write for soul. Later i found this quote,

Painting is just another way of keeping a diary.
Pablo Picasso




And now, i understand. :)



love.

heart Graffiti .

The making of . .
the Meeting of Character Nov 2008.


Mile09







A80's
Mile09
They

Special thanks to,

Fik & Ayie
Mal (Mile09)

Oh this one, taken by Fik. Terima kasih utk foto ini ya !


I had a really great day. Watching them writing on the wall, color the characters and make it till it's satisfy them. It's fun ! Some of the writers who was there are, http://www.artthey.com/ (They), http://mile09.blogspot.com/ (Mile09), A80's, writer frm Swiss, New Zealand and many more. Macam terpegun pun ada. hehe. Well, i hope to see they doing their "bombing" again next time. Thanks yaw ! :P

More pictures at : www.flickr.com/photos/blissfulaniz

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