The day when i thought life's easy, but it's not.

and makes me realize that, never predict life.

Been bz for the past few week. Last week, i get MC for 3 days due to heavy fever and swollen tonsil. For the whole 1 week i was absent from classes, and there's a lot of things i need to catch up. Math, one topic; Electromagnetic subject, one topic. A LOT, i mean. sheeshh. Next week, i need to really ready for the next work task. to close 1 source, and 1 friend. feww. Am i really ready to commit? and to accept the reaction from others? i hope so.

Last week's task was the beginning. At first, it was really hard as i never did that before in my life. I was struggling to complete it. And glad that i'm able to complete it in 4 days. As that was the first time doing it, i start with a prediction and assuming. I almost gave up as i didn't receive any good achievement in day 1. I met my leader and ask for the consultation. She told me just do it without any prediction and assuming. Never judge things, before you ever start it. So i tried again. and i can't believe that i'm able to complete it within the next 3 days. End of the day, it really taught me about reality of life and people around me. And with this task, i know now what to take, what to avoid, how to prepare, and why never predict life and people. Yes, never predict.



To live life, is to do something you never do before in your life. Then, you will able to see the real world. That's the biggest thing i learned.


love.

Jika Mungkin .

Awan, something is bothering me now. Aku mcm tk percaya apa yg k.ngah cakap tadi. He only have a certain period of time to live? Are you joking? No no. It can't be ...... terdiam.


Awan, betul ke? Ya Tuhan, tapi kenapa begitu cepat? Aku masih belum berjaya. Aku masih belum sempat memberikan dia kegembiraan, membalas segala jasanya. Kenapa begitu cepat...? Aku masih belum bersedia ...


Ya Tuhan, jika betul apa yg diberitahu oleh manusia itu. Aku masih tidak percaya. Ya, tidak. Aku percaya hidup dan mati itu, di tangan Kau, satu-satu nya Penguasa Alam. Berikanlah sedikit lagi masa, untuk aku membalas segala jasanya. Berikanlah aku sedikit lagi masa untuk aku menyayangi dia. Tuhan, aku merayu. Aku masih memerlukan dia. Jika mungkin, selama aku hidup. Jika mungkin, biarlah aku pergi sebelum dia. Tuhan, Kau lebih mengetahui segala-galanya. Berikanlah sedikit masa lagi.

......

love.

Sunshine !

and they ARE !

They're always there, when i'm in sorrow.

They're there, when i'm happy.

We share the laughter.

We share the joy.

and I heart 'em all.

love.

Warkah Hati .

Jika hati menjadi medan peperangan,
Maka ranaplah jiwa dan raga
Jika aku bandingkan cinta engkau dan Dia,
Terbukti jauh langit dan bumi bezanya.

Aku bersendirian berbicara sama awan sekali lagi,
Teman yang paling setia ciptaan Dia
Sambil memujuk hati untuk senyum kembali,
Oh awan, yakinkan aku bahawa ini hanya dugaan, bukan selamanya.

Walau setiap degup jantungku, kau sesakkan,
Aku tetap menunggu, setia menanti kepulanganmu
Namun setiap saat, setiap janji yang kau lafazkan,
Kau biarkan ianya hangus hingga menjadi debu.

Oh awan, aku sudah penat menangis
Jiwa habis punah dipijak,
Apakah hati ini akan selamanya dihiris
Atau perasaan ini akan selamanya disinis?

Kini, aku lebih merasakan cinta Dia adalah cinta abadi.
Bukan seperti kau yang hanya ada nafsu di hati.
Separuh jalanku dibiarkan mati dipintu neraka.
Separuh lagi akan aku serahkan pada yang Maha Esa.


Oh awan, bisakah kau mencari pengganti untuk menemani hatiku?
I'm no angel.

Zawani Zakaria

love.

Picture of Life .

More than just Life.

Pernah beberapa kali aku menggesa dia utk berhenti membuat Graffiti dan hanya tumpukan kepada photography. Namun dia enggan. Well, i couldn't say anything. But after awhile, he himself announced openly that he gonna stop writing Graffiti. I was curious but at the same time, i'm kinda happy. Masa berlalu, tapi sehingga hari ini, he's still active being a writer of Graffiti. No matter how people critics about the Graffiti arts, he continue it as a passion. Now i see Graffiti for him is just more than life. Not just for fun, but he write for soul. Later i found this quote,

Painting is just another way of keeping a diary.
Pablo Picasso




And now, i understand. :)



love.

heart Graffiti .

The making of . .
the Meeting of Character Nov 2008.


Mile09







A80's
Mile09
They

Special thanks to,

Fik & Ayie
Mal (Mile09)

Oh this one, taken by Fik. Terima kasih utk foto ini ya !


I had a really great day. Watching them writing on the wall, color the characters and make it till it's satisfy them. It's fun ! Some of the writers who was there are, http://www.artthey.com/ (They), http://mile09.blogspot.com/ (Mile09), A80's, writer frm Swiss, New Zealand and many more. Macam terpegun pun ada. hehe. Well, i hope to see they doing their "bombing" again next time. Thanks yaw ! :P

More pictures at : www.flickr.com/photos/blissfulaniz

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Yoga, my way of self-improvement.

National Fatwa Council to make a ruling on yoga - The Star Online

Personally, i'm totally disagree with it. Yoga is not a religion ! Yoga bukan satu kepercayaan smpai boleh memesongkan akidah seseorang. It's a complete form of exercise. The most important benefit of Yoga is, physical and mental therapy. It's not just keep our body flexible, detoxifies and rilex, it's really improve one's breathing system.

I've been practising it about 2 yrs, and the outcomes is obvious. I had asthma, and after all, i can see the difference in my breathing and improving my asthma time by time. Betul tk tipu ! My friends dulu ramai tertanya, Yoga ni betul2 beneficial ke? Tengok movement mcm sume slow motion je. Aha, walaupun kebanyakan movement in yoga pose agak slow, but when it combine with the correct breathing technique, you will see the obvious result. With regular practise of asanas (body position), pranayama (breathing technique), it will improve your flexibility, massage your inner organ, joints and ligaments, tone your muscles, improve respirations problems and lots more. You can read other the benefits of yoga here. (click !)

Yoga diharamkan hanya kerana ia dikatakan bole memesongkan agama. Sgt tk masuk akal. It's just a complete form of exercise and meditation. Jauh sekali dengan kepercayaan mahupun agama.

I have read this one artical in Yoga Life magazine (June-July 2008), it's written,

"Yoga has also been accused of being a “launching point” to export Hinduism. This is very interesting, considering the large numbers of Yoga practitioners who are not Hindus. For fundamentalist Hindus that believe Yoga and Hinduism cannot be separate, sorry to break the news, but it has already happened. Yoga was interpreted in many ways by a variety of cultures and partial facets of Yoga have grown independently. Some Hatha Yoga styles do not even practice meditation.

Yoga students outside India, pick and choose what they want to learn from Yoga. At this time, physical mastery seems to be most popular. This is why Yoga teachers outside India focus primarily on physical health. Many western students think only of Hatha Yoga, when they hear the word “Yoga.”

This is why Yoga cannot really be controlled, regulated, or patented. How do you control people’s thoughts, actions, physical practice, prayers, meditation, or songs? The whole concept of controlling Yoga is ludicrous.

The real problem with Yoga, for the fundamentalist of any religion, is that it can be practiced by anyone from any religion. Yoga is not exclusive: The laws are universal and interchangeable with every religion. This allows a Yoga practitioner to work independently on his or her spiritual health and work toward enlightenment.

What is wrong with working toward the common good? The idea of working toward enlightenment and self-perfection are considered blasphemy to some. However, can you imagine a world where men and women did not try to improve themselves?

The objectives of Yoga are complete heath, self-improvement, self realization, and tranquility. With these benefits acquired any Yoga practitioner can help others and work for the common good."

Kesimpulannya ?

You see, even the Christians said, it's not a religion. Ya, sy tak samakan Islam dgn Christian. Tapi Islam sendiri tk mengharamkan sesuatu yg bagus dan beneficial utk umatnya. Solat dan Yoga, mmg sgt berlainan dari segi niat. Tapi in term of body position, sy tk dpt nafikan, sebenarnya, mmg lebih kurang sama. You can read the artical about it here. Theyogainstructordiaries. Sy sebagai Muslim ada kewajipan yg mmg sy tunaikan spt solat and so on. Yoga doesn't memesongkan my akidah at all. Practising yoga is just to improve my health and self-awareness. So does with other Yoga practitioners. So what's wrong with the Majlis Fatwa Kebangsaan tiba-tiba nak mengharamkan Yoga? Saya harap mereka dpt membuat kajian lebih terperinci sebelum membuat apa-apa fatwa. Aih..



love.

You wanna Know? So i tell you.

For the moment of truth.

I am doing okay. Yeah, at least.

I am, yes, still missing someone that burned me up some times ago. Sayang? Mungkin. . Aku bodoh? Biarkan.

I am trying to get rid of everybody. Not because i'm stress. I need my some times alone.

I am depressed. Because of past relationship people around me. Dunia menjadi pentas lakonan semata. Aku? Kau? Kita semua. Tak mengira sesiapa, walau sedara mara kita atau darah daging kita sendiri.

I am lying to you. Yes you. Bukan aku sengaja. Tapi untuk menjaga hati kau jugak. Being too honest? Not anymore. Untuk apa? Jika diri sendiri yang akan makan hati balik.

I am abused. I mean, i was sex emotional abused. My friends asked, "kenapa kau tk nak cari BF skrang?" Answer? BF bukan untuk dicari and i need to build a balanced life for now.

I am okay, . Yeah, again. I am okay. I'm steady. Talk about patience, for yrs, i've been patient enough. Been hurt enough. But here i am, still standing on my own feet. I'm blessed.




So, now you know how it feels to be me? It's good, you know.. I'm emotional, yes i am. And i believe, common sense is a gift from The Above, The Greatest. Whatever i do, back to one thing, my common sense. Shall i, or shall i not. And yes, my practical judgment may not same as you. That's the differences. Ppl's envy, hating, critics. You're most welcome. Because we have feeling, emotion that you couldn't resist. We're just human.


"Sekarang ini, musuh kau hanyalah minda sendiri." - Zahiril Adzim.


listening to : Im the lucky One - Anuar Zain

love.

We're in yoga cover magazine !

perasan ! :P




love.

Truly Madly Deeply .

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Soulmate, Natasha Bedingfield

love.

Kugiran Matahariku .

Oh malam
Bawaku terbang jauh
Agar aku dapat bersama si dia
Agar aku dapat melihat senyumannya
Namun apakan daya
Dia hanya ilusi
Dia bukan milikku.

Sunshine,
I will give you everything
All of my life
If only you could be mine

Tidak dapat ku sembunyikan rasa
Pabila kau di depan mata
Aku hanya terkedu
Aku merindu
Namun apakan daya
Dia hanya bayangan
Dia bukan milikku.


Zawani Zakaria



love.

Raya 2008 in Action .

Raya tahun ni agak tak best. Sebab?

• I had my final exam starting from raya ke-5. It's sucks. really. With mood of raya mix with the stress of the exam, there's no way for me to concentrate. :P
  
• Tahun ni paling sket dpt duit raya. Ah tk bestt.
  
• Tak bnyk pegi beraya rumah sedara and pegi open house.
  
• Raya tahun ni lg skali tk ckp ahli, sbb K.ngah tk dpt blk. :(
  

But well, at least this raya walaupun exam, i still berkesempatan to do the Makan-makan Raya. Eventhough tk brape ramai yg dpt attend di sebabkan hal masing-masing, it's quite meriah. Thanks to those who came. :) These are some of the pictures taken during sepanjang Syawal.

Family Potrait (During 1st Raya)

The Siblings

During 1st Raya

Us with unyang

With Bee, Sya, and Qase (During my Makan-makan Raya)

During Makan-makan Raya

Us !


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Otak Letih. Jiwa Kacau dan apa lagi lah.

and i can't concentrate on my study ANYMORE !

tapi esk exm. tsk tsk.

:(

take me to the beachhh ! yeah, my sweeet escape.



love.

Sempurna .

Sering aku bertanya pada Tuhan,
Adakah ini akan berlanjutan,
Hati ku terus dinodai,
Apakah tiada jalan penyelesaian.

Sering aku bertanya pada diri sendiri,
Apa sebenarnya hidup ini,
Bergelimpangan dengan dosa, aku takut.
Adakah aku masih bisa diampuni.

Andai ku bisa mengubah masa,
Ingin ku ubah masa-masa lepas.
Tapi aku bukan tuhan untuk menentukan segalanya,
Aku hanya mampu menadah, agar hidup ini lebih indah dengan keberkatan-Nya.

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Believing the grass would be greener,
From the past, i learnt to be better,
For someday i know life won't be the same,
Sun will shine again, and tomorrow will be new.


Zawani Zakaria

love.

Soal Hati .

Kadang hati berkata,
Aku masih mampu.
Tapi bila jiwa meronta,
Aku sedar, aku hanya itu.
Bila kau sesekali menjengah,
Aku keliru..

Jika aku punya hati,
Mengapa kau punya benci?
Jika aku ada cinta,
Mengapa kau masih sendiri?

Redha, hanya itu yang ku mampu.
Mungkin ini hanya dugaan.
Untuk esok aku masih tidak tahu.
Aku hanya berserah kepada Mu, Ya Allah.
Lindungilah aku daripada keraguan.
Keraguan yang bisa menjatuhkan aku ke dalam lubang dosa Mu.


Zawani Zakaria


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