Fallin' .

and

I keep on f a l l i n g .

Lesson 1 : When you want something so bad, let it loose abit.
Don't hold on too tight.

You could find a way. someday.

love.

Empty Space .

What i feel like saying for today,

Mind is like a sword.
Mind is like an enemy.
When there's too many mind,
it'll distract.

FOCUS.

i need to focus.


love.

a Stupid notes .

Personally when a girl said,
"I was waited for your reply" or asked,
"Why didn't you call me last night?" to a guy;

They didn't expect a sorry note from the guy. They just want you to know that they're thinking about you. They just need perhaps 10% of your attention in 24 hrs time if not 100%. A woman didn't ask 100% concentration for them. Enough to show them some care, enough with simple conversation to give them comfort.


A simple, "how's your day today?" or
"how's your meeting just now?" is more than enough.

A little note, may looks stupid for you. But for a woman, is a huge quick relief when they received. It just brighten their days.


They don't ask you to pamper them.
They don't want your money.
They don't need your 24/7 attention.

They just need a little care.
They just want to be loved.
and most importantly,
They love you, and thinking about you all the time.


love.

The Day I Have Gotta Live My Dreams .

There are places in this world that aren't made out of stone. That there's something inside.. that they can't get to, that they can't touch. That's yours. That is HOPE.

The Shawshank Redemption (1994)

I had a great Saturday when i just spent time at home, cooking, and watching old movies with my housemate, Kuza. Yesterday, i watched The Shawshank Redemption, Seven Pounds and Ayat-Ayat Cinta (haha!). and we cooked Cheese and Herbs Pasta for the dinner. The previous week, watched Save The Last Dance and Close. There goes my weekend. Swweeet ! :D

Oh my favourite songs, by Athena Cage and Only You by 112. It's OST Save The Last Dance. Damn, i miss the steps, and the beat.

The hardest to recovery,
From the heartbreak of another kind
I'm still drying my tears
Getting over my own fears
in my life, so I wanna make sure this time
that I'm strong enough to give it my all.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem
you gotta work to get the cream,
On your hopes you must lean,
from your fears, you have to win yourself
It's all or nothing, give your everything.

All or Nothing by Athena Cage

Gotta stay strong and continue to walk uphill. :) Cheerio !

love.

When a Girl Loves a Guy .

I am so proud of myself when i finally had a great deal in selling the camera today. Dpt la untung sket. hee. And to celebrate it *ceh celebrate la sgt*, i went for a movie with Azfar and we watched Ice Age 3. Man, Ice Age 3 was awesome. Funny, comel gle ! In the middle of the movie, i realize i laughed too loud mengalahkan kanak2 yg ada kt dlm cinema. lol. Over-excited eh? :P But seriously, Ice Age is a hilarious fun movie u shouldn't miss. :D

Err apa kena mengena ngan title entry? :P It's just a brief what i love most about today. hee. :)


Well, i was 'cooking' maggie when i heard one of my housemate cried in the other room tonite. I thought she was talking to somebody and crying or sthng. But it's getting worse and i sneak out her room to see if she's ok. Obviously she didn't. She didn't get over her past relationship totally. I talked to her for a minutes, tried to make her feel good again, but i know it's all depends on her to make thngs better.

Yes, it's about when a girl love a guy. It's about healing the break-up. It's about when we couldn't make up, and moving on when the good thngs in the past shadowed everything. Sucks rite? Trust me, i know how it feels.

When i'm done talking to her, i sat outside and reminiscing. Somehow her story reminds me of my past. I've been through that situation. I've been burned a lot, hurt a lot. I've been through the state i nearly killed myself when i love a guy too much. The day when i couldn't stand on my own feet, when i couldn't moving on with my life.

I let myself living in despair, in guilty and blamed myself for everything had done between the relationship. Love is blind. No? My heart was blinded by the love. You'll keep all the good memories, and you left all the fights and arguments behind when you're in healing process. You'll try to fix thngs which already broken. It makes you weak, it makes you feel like there's no one can replaced him anymore.

But trust me, it's all worth the pain. Sun will shine after the rain. :)

Alhamdulillah.. Today, i am glad to be who i am.
Every single thngs happen in my life build me to be a tougher person. Time by time i learn to face the real world. It taught me to see life in many side, in different colors. It's not easy, but it's worth 1000 times.

Well girl, all you need to do is to learn to love yourself more. To appreciate yourself, and believe that you could stand by your own feet no matter what happen. If it's not you, then who? Your life, your future, your everythng is all depends on you. Not him, no one. It's just YOU. Take a very good care of your own heart. Build strong faith in you. You're sure you can survive it. :)


Tiba-tiba rasa lega. Ntah? *senyum*



love.

Be Me . Be You .

"You must see yourself happy if happiness is the state you are seeking."


This is what i often do when i *ehem* when i feel unstable, or feeling down. :) hehe. Get a book, write a rhythm or poem, listen to my playlist, or hv a walk alone. But most of the time, i'll spend time with any interesting books and my playlist. It work on me somehow. Ah tp reality is, knowledge can be useless without we apply it in a real world. Like what i read in Yoga Of Wealth which stated,

"You can hv perfect awareness and strong self-belief, but if you still cannot bring yourself to act when your chances comes, you will never move forward in your life. Stagnate in all of your knowledge."

It's true. I am one of it who always miss a chance when the right time comes. Sometimes we tend to think too much, act less. Speak more, progression zero. Typical isn't it? I must improve. Aniz, sila beri konsentrasi. Sila back on tracks. Tolong fokus. *breath in, breath out* Okeh ! Sy mau tido dulu. lol. Tmrw is a new day. I hope everythng's gonna be fine and better.

Oh i shall share with you this. Life is complete when you complete it, when you find that 'thing' to complete it. Mcm comel kan ayat tu? hehe. And what is that 'thing'? You need to find it. :) Ah my pillow is missing me. :P Good Night everyone !


love.

The Melody I Wish .

Nobody knows what you're thinking inside,
Nobody knows what the future will bring to us.

All i know is,
Life is rich,
Love is pure,
Life is complete and beautiful

So even when you feel pretty blue,
Remember there are always another bright colors awaits you.


Zawani Zakaria




Loneliness somehow gv me some space to think, to create, to reminiscing, makes me whole and makes me feel human. :)

love.

Bijak Vs. Pandai ?

Ysterday i had a conversation with my 3rd sister, Alang. We're talking about general mindset, bisness, future planning, pasal kenapa kawen kene pakai baju formal and make up tebal2 (haha!) and ntah apa2 lg yg merepek but beneficial. hehe. We discussed about my current activity, past and future my planning for the next 6 months and targets for 1 yr. Wahaa sounds serious do we? haha, kami mmg suke berdiskusi seperti itu. Ok, back to the topic. In the middle of conversation,

......
Saya : Hm, i don't thnk i'm going to be as active as dulu in ***. It's pretty much costy for me. mileage lg, ticketing, bla bla. kadang2 bole la, ni if everyday pn u need to spend ave rm25/day. Gle bnyk kuar duit. I can't handle the ppl too.

Alang : Alang dh nmpk tu since mula i met them lg. Tp awk kate tak, diorang bagus pe sume.

Saya : Some of them mmg bagus. strong mindset. They built me to be like now, to hv strong vision. *** were good. Cuma some of them, err. Hm but i know it's my fault sbb i thought i can handle it.

Alang : To be great, awk kene pandai set ur priority.

Saya : yeah. Along ada baca dlm buku tu (It's Not About How Good You Are, It's How Good You Want To Be by Paul Arden). It says, don't look for the next opportunity, the one you have in hands is the opportunity. I've try my best to hold on and gv my best. Tp i need to thnk bout the problem occurs jgk. need to reduce the cost, and so on. Hmph.

Alang : Awak tahu tk apa beza org bijak ngan org pandai?

Saya : aAaa, tahu kot. apa dia?

Alang : Org bijak belaja dpd kesalahan org lain. Org pandai belaja dpd kesalahan sendiri. So awk nk jd apa?

Saya : Hm, dua2 perlu kot.

Alang : Awk kene blaja kesalahan dpd dua2 source. Tp kalau bole kene la jd org bijak.

.......
Continue talking and gelak gelak .. :P

Kalau bole sume org nk jd org bijak. If you got chance to do so, do it. Rather you waste your time on doing the wrong thng. I mean bkn benda yg salah. Cuma maybe unbenificial thng. :P Honestly, i've spent half of my life in experiencing. Yep, konon jd org pandai. haha. I do this and that, then only i admit what and where i go wrong. It might be a loss for me. But, mungkin cara tu yg menyebabkan minda sy terbuka. Maybe? hehe. It depends on oneself. Every little mistakes told me something that i still hv chance to go right. So how about you? Smart or clever?


Aniz, tlg la jd smart and bijak ! GET UP and WORK IT ALL OUT ! :D

Words remain words without one step ahead .

love.

Life's like playing card? No?

From my previous entry, 'aw Pokka again?' .

"i wish a balanced life, love and laugh. no one wish to be sadder. the happiest moment in one's life is to love and being loved by someone else. give us the courage to move on, to live this life no matter how hard it is. who's perfect? expect me to be one? forever i won't be, cause nobody does. everyone made mistakes, so do i. and so do you. but mistakes will always be a mistake if you do not try to improve it, if you don't try to change it for good. it's hard, i know. but it's for ourself, for our own happiness. i believe that life's perfect when happiness is there, no matter what you do. believe in ourself."


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and it makes me smile. Yes believe. :)

Why i love blogging? Personally, blogging could be your best friend, your best diary, when you can write anythng, your personal point of view, your review, your poem, put your pictures, ah pendek kate sume bole ltk. Mungkin org kate, mcm nk overexposed diri sendiri je? actly tidak. It's not to overexposed oneself. It's actly teach us to value every single thng that happen in our life. To appreciate ourself more. Believe it or not, when it comes to certain period of time, you will realize how blogging can be meaningful. You will smile, when you read your old posts and your entry can be your reminder how special you are when you're down. When you thnk life's unfair, you're wrong because life's being totally fair to you. Everythng happen for reason. It might take some times to reveal the reason why it happens. It doesn't matter because yang paling penting, we appreciate every single thng in our life. That's why we called life's a journey. By blogging, i express myself into my own words, into my own rhythm. Like how i like it. :) So no offense. I hope. hee.



Reminder to Myself : Hello, ur exm is on 20th ok? tk sedar lg? gahh, sy cuak kerana sy begitu rilex. :( chaiyokk ! FOCUSSS !

ok chow. i'm wasting too much time. haha.


love.

the Fighter .

Bagan Lalang, Sepang. 12/5/09, 6.56pm.

.. Because life is about fight for our future.

love.

No doubt .

.. because it's all about hope,
and you just need to believe with all your soul.








God, i know there's a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on.
I never let my fears conquer me
cos i know in my heart what i can be.

Holding On by Taufiq Batisah

Bismillahi tawakkal 'alAllah.

love.

The Day I'm Gonna Be A Shining Star, Fancy Clothes and Fancy Car.

And then you'll see, i gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows who you are.

So live your life,
Instead of chasing that paper,
Live your life,
You got no time for no haters,
So live your life,
No telling you where it will take you,
So i just live my life.

Live Your life by Rihanna Ft. T.I

Today, i realize what's the power of sharing and how it change the way i take thngs personally. It doesn't matter if you're the one who share thngs, or you're the one who listen to it.

When i share thngs, my journey, or my feeling, or when i motivating other ppl, i am actly motivating myself. I am actly reminding myself. I am actly, attracting the positive vibration that might be fade slowly before.

And when i listen to other's journey, or their feeling and when they gving me motivation, i learn to accept, i learn to listen more, speak less, i learn to visualize, and i learn to change. .


I am building myself. I am blur, and i am slow. But it's ok, cos i know though it might take some times, i'm gonna be far, i'm gonna get what i want. I really inspired by the song sang by Rihanna, Live Your Life. I love the rap part by T.I.


"Nevermind what haters say, ignore them 'til they fade away.
Amazing they ungreat for after all the game I gave away.
Safe to say I paved the way, for you can't get paid today.
You still be wasting days away, nah had I never saved the day."

"Some move away to make a way not move away cause they afraid.
I'll go back to the hood and all you ever did was hate away.
I pray for patience but they make me want to face away."

"Where you from, who you know, what you make and what kind of car you in.
Seems as though you lost sight of whats important with the positive.
And checks into your bank account, and you're about poverted.
Your values is a disarrayed, prioritized are horribly.
Unhappy with the riches cause you piss poor morraly.
Ignoring all prior advice and fore warning.
And we might be full of ourselves all of a sudden aren't we?"


See, not all raps are bad. :P Neutralize the negative, and surely we will be positive.

Reminder to myself : Again, focus ! Time won't wait for ya.


Love.

Picture of Life .

More than just Life.

Pernah beberapa kali aku menggesa dia utk berhenti membuat Graffiti dan hanya tumpukan kepada photography. Namun dia enggan. Well, i couldn't say anything. But after awhile, he himself announced openly that he gonna stop writing Graffiti. I was curious but at the same time, i'm kinda happy. Masa berlalu, tapi sehingga hari ini, he's still active being a writer of Graffiti. No matter how people critics about the Graffiti arts, he continue it as a passion. Now i see Graffiti for him is just more than life. Not just for fun, but he write for soul. Later i found this quote,

Painting is just another way of keeping a diary.
Pablo Picasso




And now, i understand. :)



love.