Reality Check .

Horoscope for August 3, 2008.
Gemini (May 21 - Jun 21)

It can be tough to get your feelings across to someone, but it's totally impossible to do so when you won't spill the beans! Do you really think they can read your mind? And even if you give them tons of clues to figure out how you feel, they could easily misread them. The only way this thing is going to move forward is for you to use words! Tell them what's been on your mind. They're ready to hear it, and eager to tell you what's been on their mind!

ahh, i wish and i wish i could do so. but do he really wanna hear it? i don't know.. blaahh. -_-' keep it untold.

love.

La la la love song !

What i love about today . .
I'm grateful ,

Y to have the whole day at home, do some house chores and washed my sport shoes which i've abandoned it for more than 6 months. haha. *oops!*

Y i made chicken stew for my lunch and chicken wrap for my dinner. hee.

Y i get sweat with yoga this evening. I was injured abit while doing various poses of the shoulder stand, but i learn more bout how to control the movement.

Y i manage to wish liza on her birthday at 12am ! ehe..


Sweet 22nd Liza !


love.

Pocketful of Sunshine .

Today, I'm Grateful . .

• for the 8 hours sleep that i had. i was so tired with my packed schedule lately..
• i don't have to wait for the bus for a long time in the hot sunny day .
• manage to finish my MTA 1's report . oh tgl print je. hehe.
• to see happy kids playing with themself. It's just makes me smile.
• for finally have some little time to update my blog. hehe.

Goodnight everyone !

love.

Holding On .

by Taufik Batisah .

My world is closing in I`m so alone
The door is locked and nobody`s home
Desire is the key that I must own
Emotions get me losing control
I`m losing control

But I know
It`s the way that I must live
Even though
It`s so unclear, so unfair
God I know
There`s a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on

I`m wishing I was somebody else
This world left me all by myself
Now why do they keep playing with my mind
Trying to break me down trying to make me blind
But I see

Cuz I know
It`s the way that I must live
Even though
It`s so unclear, so unfair
God I know
There`s a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on

God I know
There`s a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on

Never let my fears conquer me
Cuz I know in my heart what I can be
Holding on ..


love.

Bliss, complete happiness .

Malam ni agak sunyi. Not really in the mood though, kinda "rasa tak best". Yea, again. Maybe because of incident lunch td? oh crap lah. Why should i drag it for too long. but then again, i couldn't help myself, can't control myself. Ammar said, "nmpk sgt kot awk jeles ngan budak tu". huhu, demm. my bad, aihh. After lunch, i went back home and online. Oh he's on9, but he's status was busy. and she's on9, and the status was busy too. ah kebetulan je tu, sedapkan hati. But the feeling "rasa tak best" was still there. End up, i went sleep around 1pm, konon-kononnye to reset my mind off from the "rasa tak best" before. Bangun-bangun, it's already 3 something and i wasn't prepare for the badminton game at 4pm yet. Zuhur tak solat lg, muka tak basuh lg, shuttlecock and skipping rope pn tk masuk dlm beg lg, terus ke depan and check ym. Hampa, tk dek sebarang msg. "aih, tkpela, maybe he's busy". Again, utk sedapkan hati.

It was already 3.45 and i still in front of my pc. Checked my hp and tgk2 Ammar miscalled me 3 times. uhu, i'm late againn. Changed cloth and sheeshh, i forgot where did i put my shuttlecock. No choice, i went to kedai runcit NZ to buy 2 shuttlecocks yg mahal tp tak berapa kualiti. Arrived at Cyberjaya Komuniti Center half and hour late. Nasib Ammar tk perli. hehe. Kinda long time tak pegang raket. I think about 7-8 months. we played 1 set, he won la of course with 19-20 for 1st set, 21-25 for 2nd set. And oh terima kasih Ammar for leaving the love bite at my nose. Don't know if he was purposely to target or accidently, the shuttlecock kissed my nose dgn begitu pantas. Nak elak pn tk sempat. haha. But the game was fun, and apparently cure the "rasa tak best" for awhile.

Hmm, i'm trying to have my focus back. Lotsa thing to be settle down now, my midterm, kerja, dan kerja. But sometimes, i wonder with myself, am i just scared to move thing first? But if i move thing first, am i a loser? Or, am i still shadowed by the past and scared if it'll happen once again? Aih, those questions selalu comes out like so sudden. I might pretending i'm doing fine and cool, but God knows how i feel, what i need. I was like holding a piece of hope, but i can't given up on life. I learn one thing, i can't always get what i wanted and be the way i wanted. Yea, i have to be grateful for what i have now. ahh, thanks God, "rasa tak best" tu dh hilang. For now, i think the best listener is my innerself. Yea, it's like talking to yourself, inside you. Whenever i feel down, "she" gv me the courage to take it positively.

Oh it's already 11.31pm, i should stop writing now and have a sleep. Tmrw is a new day, and i pray that tmrw will be better than today.

love.

Kau Pergi Jua .

In my Playlist :

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!




>> IF SOMEONE SAYS "I CAN'T DO THIS!!" YOU SAY?
- Rindu Bayangan .

>> WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
- About Time .

>> WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
- Since You've Been Gone . :P

>> WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
- Too Much .

>> WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
- Ice Box . (ntah ape ape. :P)

>> WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
- Too Much to Ask . (haha!)

>> WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
- I'm So Into You .

>> WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
- Tragedi Oktober . (hahahah!)

>> WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
- Pada Senyummu .

>> WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- Everytime .

>> WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
- Spanish Guitar .

>> WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
- Everywhere .

>> WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- Still Reminds Me .

>> WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
- For The Records .

>> WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
- Sweetest Goodbye .

>> WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
- Biarlah . (haha! :P)

>> WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
- Permintaan Hati .

>> WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
- Big Girls Don't Cry . (ngeee. ;P)

>> WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
- Whatever It Takes .

>> WHAT SONG WILL BE THE SUBJECT WHEN YOU REPOST?
- Kau Pergi Jua .

Sedang bosan while waiting for Keyon and his friends. Bosan bonar ~ but the quiz kinda fun though. Have a try ! :P selamat ~


Have a nice day everyone !


love.

Mari Memasak !

aha i often cook at home now to cut down my budget and to keep my diet. ahaks diet la sgt ~ :P and besides, memasak juga bole hilang kan stress anda. hee.

Easy BP Chicken.

Bahan-bahan :

1 boneless chicken breast
BBQ sauce or teriyaki sauce (marinate purpose)
1/2 onion (dipotong dadu)
butter
1 teaspoon of black pepper coarse (yg kasar nya)
1 teaspoon of white pepper (yg halus nya)
1 tablespoon of soy sauce or kikkoman sauce
lettuce
tomatoes (dipotong dadu)
wheat tortillas or bread.


Cara-Cara Memasak :

1. Marinate chicken ngan bbq sauce or teriyaki sauce in a container dan biarkan dlm fridge selama beberapa jam.
2. Panas kn butter dlm pan, tp jgn biarkan pan terlalu panas ye.
3. Masukkan onions yg sudah dipotong, chicken yg sudah di marinate.
4. Fry until the chicken is tender, kemudia masukkan soy sauce or kikkoman sauce, black pepper coarse and white pepper, then stir it about 6-7 minutes.
5. Wrap it with wheat tortillas or bread.

or u can just eat it with fresh lettuce and tomatoes, if u want. (my favourite!)

sekian. :P

love.

For Self-reminder .

From Gail Cohen, author of Thinking Outsides The Lines: Power Thinking For the 21st Century.


10 Qualities to Trade up Your Life !

1. Have extraordinary purpose, set goals high.


2. Willing to take risks, have the confidence to step out of the comfort zone to try new activites, and ideas.


3. Participate fully in life, take part in organisations, families and communities.
4. Energetic, willing to jump in and take thngs on and hv the mental energy necessary to get it done.


5. Humble, not afraid to admit that we don't know it all, eager to keep growing.


6. Commited to life-long learning, always in the process of learning more.


7. Successful attitude, positive thinking.


8. Persistent but have options, never give up, and try variety of thngs to get what we wanted.
9. Strive for health in all aspects, physically, emotionally, spiritually, intelllectually and socially.


10. Rise above adversity, rise above the small stuff to achieve greatness in our lives.

Life's kind when you believe .

love.

Life's to learn.

What makes a man a man ?

Gucci, Guess or Dior?

Endlessly Money?

Love and Passionate?

Freedom?

.....

....

...

..

The answer's rely on you .

Silent Night .

"Close your eyes to something you don't wanna see,

but you can't close your heart to something you don't wanna feel".

I'm walking through a thousand miles,
alone in silent roads,
and i keep searching for the answers,
where do i go from here..
how can i escape from the same route that i used ..
could somebody guide me to where i belong?
and bring me to somewhere,
to the place i can called home,
to the space i can breath calm ..

Don't know where i'm headed,
roads become narrower and colder ..
but here i am, stuck in the same hole.
and i took the final glance to the last hope,
it's faded, i can't see it clearly ..

God, lift my strength,
give me hope, and bright the light.
cause i can't face this alone,
especially in this lonely night.
i'm scared and totally weak.
i pray to you, God.
let me out of this dark,
give me some light,
for me to walk down in this ugly street.
so that i know,
where will i go from here ..




truly,
Zawani Zakaria

love .

Mimpi tinggal Mimpi .

Tak bisakah kau menunggu ku ..

Tak bisakah kau menyayangi ku ..

dan

Tak bisakah kau memahami ku ..

truly,
zawani zakaria

love.

As I Am .

Sometimes, i wanted to be like you ..

sometimes, i wish i could have everything ..

to be happier each and every time ..

to fly,

and jump high to reach the sky ..

And sometimes,

i wish i could have you forever .

i wish i could be whatever you want me to be ..

stylish and feminine ..

calm and gentle ..

cool and patient ..

always be there to hold your hands ..

But here i am ..

always lose a chance ..

cold and impatient .

i can't be your superwoman ..

i can't be your everything ..

though i've tried, nothing's seems right again .

As i sleep, and i dream ..

that one day you will back in my arms,

but another day when i wake up,

i realize a dream is just a dream ..

and you can't stop time,

and make it as how you want it to be .

And now i understand ..

happiness is all about to enjoy every moments ..

fall or rise, i will gladly stand,

to be as i am ..

who cares bout what others say,

cos everything is a challange ..

and they'll never weaken me .

Y special Notes

.:: to all my friends, saya mau meminta maaf jika ada salah dan silap atau tersalah ckp before atau pun terkasar bhs. (cewah, mcm raya plk. hehe)sy ckp mmg kasar sket dan kadangkala, sy ni mmg suka ckp lepas. jd, sy nk minta maaf kpd sesape yg terasa ek. oh muka sy mmg serius, tp jgn la salah sangka.. sy ni tk sombong org nye. ngehehee.. ;P

.:: and to you, DD .. i always wish you well.. and i hope evrythng's fine and selamat berbahagia. i hope you gonna be a better person and a good muslim, soon, in'Allah..

.:: oh utk sesape shj, jika ada ketidakpuasan terhadap sy, sila hubungi sy terus atau berjumpa sy utk selesai kan masalah anda. no need to be anonymous. just you and me. jgn biarkan penyakit hati anda berleluasa. ok? peace !

have a nice day everyone !

Love .

my TOP 3 .

Wish i could fly to the paradise now . .

sy bosan ~ dan tiada apa yg menarik utk dilakukan, jd sy pn buat la survey ini. hehe.


THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
1- waney
2- aniz
3- zawani

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
1- 1/6
2- my family's birthdate.
3- the day when i .. fallen and broken. ( hehe.. )

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST AN HOUR:
1- bathe.
2- maghrib prayer.
3- chatting.

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1- being optimistic.
2- smile a lott !
3- spend time at the beach whenever i feel depress !

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AS FOR NOW
1- All You Wanted - Michelle Branch.
2- 4 Minutes - Justin Timberlake ft Madonna.
3- For The Record - Mariah Carey.

THREE THINGS YOU LOVE IN A GUY/GIRL:
1- Sense of humour.
2- Understanding.
3- Caring.

THREE PEOPLE YOU MISS:
1- the old MILK. (seriously, i miss all those moments that we had.)
2- Liza. (my bestie since i was secondary.)
3- Reef Lover participants ! ;)

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1- necklace or bracelet.
2- new nikon. (ngeee :P )
3- perfume !

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1- traveling and sightseeing.
2- cooking.
3- photography.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR NEXT VACATION:
1- Sipadan.
2- Maldives.
3- Mekah.

THREE FAVORITE CARTOON/ANIME CHARACTERS:
1- Blossom in PowerPuff Girls.
2- Sailor Jupiter in Sailormoon.
3- Shin Chan !

THREE MALLS YOU USUALLY GO TO:
1- KLCC.
2- Jusco.
3- Sunway Pyramid.

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
1- Coffee.
2- Green Tea.
3- Mineral Water always the best. hehe.

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR pocket:
1- my cents.
2- tissue.
3- my mp3 (i put in my pocket sometimes.)

THREE FAVOURITE PERFUME
1- Euphoria by CK.
2- Hypnose by Lancome.
3- True Star by Tommy Hilfiger.

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1- Blue Green.
2- Brown.
3- Black.

TOP THREE HANGOUTS:
1- My breezy room ! :D
2- The Coast Alamanda. (my work place.)
3- Starbucks.

Sekian Terima Kasih. hee.



Love.

When we risk it all .

We can't blame others when love dwindles away -
For we knew from the start it never promised to stay.

It's just one of those things were the stakes are high -
And sometimes it's forever, and sometimes it's good-bye.

When you love the right way, you will never lose -
No matter what path life may force you to choose.

You may end up with tears, or a broken heart -
But you knew what you signed up for from the start.

You can only give what you've got to give -
And if that's not enough, then you must continue to live.

Life will go on and broken hearts will heal -
You must continue on your quest, for that's the deal.

Throw your heart into life, and never stall -
For the greatest risk is to risk nothing at all.

You see, love is the only thing that we know -
That can be divided and divided but continue to grow.

And life isn't long enough to lock away our heart -
Just because life may have forced two people apart.

We will continue to love and continue to lose -
We will continue to pick and continue to choose.

And then one day we will just risk it all -
Take the chains off our hearts and dismantle the wall.

The last time we love will be the forever -
And never again will our hearts be forced to sever.

We'll never have doubts that it'll go away -
Because this time, it'll be here to stay.

But until then we must endure all the pain -
For we only see sunshine if we can wait through the rain.


(1st March 2004)

love.

Rainbow after the rain.

broken inside, bleeding hard,
when you're gone, when you hate me with your closed heart.
maybe it's time to make the choice on my own,
eventhough i know the risk of being alone.
i don't care what people said and thought,
all i know is i wanna make it worth of all.
maybe i'm not strong when i'm alone,
but rather than pain, i think i had enough.
feel empty inside, but it's okay.
cause it heals with time, everythng gonna be alright.
i'll keep my faith as long as i live.
life's kind and you will see,
they treat you fine when you believe..




to my dearest Qase,
laugh and tears, i'll be here beside.




love.