Oh Wow Panjangnya !

How did you feel when u know someone has his/her eyes on u? or perhaps, spying on u? Mesti terasa bangga kan? Yelah, igt artis je ke ada gossip2 liar? Org biasa pn sure tk terlepas punya, kan? Kenapa berlakunya situation dengki-mendengki, benci-membenci dan terus akan ada adegan mengumpat dan bergossip? Kenapa ye?

Sometimes when i think about it, it's kinda funny. For me, mungkin mereka kurang diberi perhatian. Atau mungkin itu lifestyle mereka, just for fun, utk mencari dosa lebih? Or maybe, they're envious? Maybe it's not their fault when they're selfless. Sounds pathetic aren't they? Whatever the reason is, i don't bother what's on your mind. I mean, at all.

When i first received a comment from the anonymous regarding my entry in my blog, i was shocked and mad. Perasaan bercampur, smpai rasa nk menangis. heh.

Anonymous has left a new comment on your post "Summary of May .":

true n true ur stupid. do you know what love means anyway ? u always let ur self cheated for like zillionss of guys..do they cheat ? or u syok sendiri jer? u should be smart enough to think n love your self. not give everything. everyone knows u slept with many guys.. obviously kan.. thats why i said.. u give everything.. without thinking.

Wow, like a god? Act like they know everything inside out of me. Hebat kan die ni? Sbb tu i was shocked masa first time baca. Bkn la bermaksud nk tunjuk who really i am, teruk ke bagus ke.. Tak. Actly bnyk lg i received frm the anonymous. Tk payah la paste kat sini kan. Tapi tkpe, mungkin she/he try to leave a good msg there. Tapi tk perlu la anonymous, cos if you want to talk sthng good and u sure u're right, u dont hv to be afraid to show who you really are. But the question is, are u?

I've learnt that bila org memberi nasihat, take what he/she said, without looking at siapa yg memberi teguran tu. Because if u really wanna be a someone, u need to listen more. So i did. For ages, i try to build my self-confidence, self-control and acceptance to others. It's not easy to change, but in life, we need to. Resistance, is normal. Like i told earlier, jgn kan artis, org biasa like me, tk terlepas dpd pandangan org lain, tk terlepas dpd menjadi bhn cemuhan, dibenci org, sume ada. Ah so sy ni one step ahead to be as popular as artist la kan? ngeh.

To the 'anonymous', 'ygmembencikau' and all haters out there, let me tell u sthng. Tk pernah terfikir kenapa Palestin hancur? Kenapa org melayu zaman sekarang susah nak maju? Ppl nowadays sibuk memboikot brg2 la, mencari kesalahan org ni la, benda tula. Tapi, masalah tk juga selesai. Why? There's no humanity. What? Humanity? Penting sgt ke? Well, for me, if there's no humanity in you, if you're not a big hearted person, perhaps, u are one of the ppl yg mungkin tak akan berjaya dlm hidup walaupun ada degree dpt 4 flats. I learn now that in life, we need to pay it forward, not to pay it back. When u help someone, dont expect them to pay it back, but take it as we pay it forward. :)

So, u can say anythng u want because words can't bring me down at all. Mungkin kamu tk punya big heart and strong humanity value to understand why manusia tk perlu membenci dan bertelagah sesama sendiri. Kerana itu punca manusia tk berjaya dlm kehidupan mereka. I hv my own reasons why i do this and that, which i don't need to tell the world to make them understand. Enough that i know that i did it all for myself, and my family. and enough that i know i don't take others money, i don't depends on anybody to survive in this life. and enough that i know eventhough i hv to lent others money to start sthng to change my life and not for own use, i know i will pay it back. Sy tk malu. I know what i'm doing. I do what i can. But how about u? What's the best thing u achieve in ur life? U know better.

Oh wow, mcm panjang plk entry kali ni. Sesi meluahkan perasaan ke? heh. Tk la sgt. Cuma tergerak hati nk tulis je. Well, it's all about how u take it. :) Wallahua'lam.

Have a good day alrite?



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