. the Pieces of Me .

When can i see you again ?

2010-03-24T15:36:00.002+08:00

After all the silence, I shall say hello 2010 to my blog. I've been bz with stuffs and been stop writing since last December. Life seems too good and I forget about the thing I used to do almost everyday, blogging.

I come across to someone's status in fb today, he stated, "Kasih Sayang ni milik Allah.. kita hanya menjaganya, Yg menentukan Hanya Allah.. AllahuRahmanuRRAhim.. Allah Yang Membalik balikkan hati manusia."

and I paused. Hanya Tuhan yang mampu membuka dan menutup hati seseorang. Sometimes kita terlalu leka. We often think about where did we go wrong when something bad happen to a relationship. And worst, we blame others when it happens. and I unfortunately tak terlepas dpd berfikiran begitu. I often asked myself where am I go wrong when I don't get like how I wanted, what more I can do to have it, etc. Tapi tanpa kita sedar, without keizinan-Nya for that to happen, it won't happen even how hard we tried.

*sigh*

Our intention or niat. Mungkin jika memperbetulkan niat, Tuhan akan mengizinkan. Everything's start with good intentions; to do something, to love someone, to achieve your goals, just everything.

When I lose faith to something, I learn now that to always look back to my intentions. Why did I decide to this and that, why did I choose him, or love him and etc. And I believe, God hv a better plan for us. Life goes on. Maybe one day my time will come. I just need to hold strong.

It's just a matter of time I'm sure,
It takes time and I will hold on.

"Ya Allah, kau tabahkanlah hatiku, berikan aku kekuatan, dan iman yang teguh. Aku insan yang terlalu lemah, lindungilah aku daripada godaan syaitan. Kau Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang, murahkan rezeki ku, berkatilah segala nikmat dan kebahagiaan yang telah Kau kurniakan kpd ku. Kau Maha Mengetahui segala isi hati ku dan kepadaMu aku berserah. "

Solemnization of K.ina & Samier .

2009-12-16T13:28:00.003+08:00

Date : 22/11/2009
Location : Taman Warisan, Sepang

love.

The Basic .

2009-12-01T07:25:00.001+08:00

“If I have the belief that I can do it, I shall surely acquire the capacity to do it even if I may not have it at the beginning.” - Mahatma Gandhi

Lesson 2 : Believe that you can do it, eventhough it might look impossible at first.

Even a small thngs that you wish to do need that belief to accomplish it.

Well, i got some story, maybe it's just a stupid story. but i think i apply it well. :)

One day my dentist decided to remove my gigi geraham since it cause serious pain. and because of that, i need to get use myself to chew on the left side instead of right side, my usual path. It's seriously hard for me. At first, i thought i will never able to do it. Since i didn't believe that i can chew well when i change to left side, i keep chewing using right side. Bayangkan when you eat, it stucks, you can't even taste the thng you eat. You can't eat meat, and bread because it'll stuck between the hole when you chew it.

After 2 weeks, i decided just to hv a try to chew using left side. and i keep repeating to myself that i can and that oneday i will get use to it as if that's my usual path. And today, without i notice it, with that believe, i'm able to chew on the left side without any problem. hee. :D

And today, it's applied when i wanted to heal or motivate myself when i feeling down or stress. Without i believe that i'm gonna be alright, and everything's gonna be fine, i won't feel good even how hard i tried. Sure i need a supporter to support me, to listen to me when i'm down. But i still believe that myself is my greater supporter. She always remind me that i always can stand by my own feet. She always be my side. She's there all the time.

.....

love.

F uc K !

2009-11-30T12:25:00.003+08:00

I am fucking annoyed with my current practical job !

who do you think you are?!!

sukati engkau je nk suruh buat blk invoice and quotation yg engkau salah bg?!

dh la gaji tk masuk2 lg. u gv shit of works. and we need to tanggung and buat blk the error that u did? fuck weh.

:((
i try to calm myself, but i just can't. i just can't control my temper !

$%#$#^* !

I'm Just A Singer .

2009-11-28T04:52:00.002+08:00

You're the world.

Can i be your Bella Luna?

love.

Fallin' .

2009-11-26T12:44:00.005+08:00

and

I keep on f a l l i n g .

Lesson 1 : When you want something so bad, let it loose abit.
Don't hold on too tight.
You could find a way. someday.

love.

It's Raining .

2009-11-20T09:26:00.010+08:00

but i can turn your gray sky bluer .
and i can make your smile even brighter.
till the day when you will care.
till the day i will get you there.

you challange me for the better.
through the good, and the bad, the ups and the downs.
i will always be here.
to be your secret admirer.

love.

Whenever You Call .

2009-11-19T16:42:00.004+08:00

by Mariah Carey ft Brian McKnight

I won't ever be too
Far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call.

You can turn to me and cry
Always understand that I
Give you all I have inside.

my favourite song. :)

love.

The Special 5 Words .

2009-11-19T10:56:00.003+08:00

Describe yourself in 5 words;

♥ thoughtful
♥ loving
♥ unpredictable
♥ compassionate
♥ creative

How about you? How you describe yourself in 5 words? :)

That 5 words might change your life when you know your strength, apply it at the right time and it is actually the powerful thoughts that can improve you to be a better man. :)

love.

Empty Space .

2009-11-18T13:18:00.004+08:00

What i feel like saying for today,

Mind is like a sword.
Mind is like an enemy.
When there's too many mind,
it'll distract.
FOCUS.

i need to focus.

love.

a Heart note .

2009-11-10T12:51:00.005+08:00

Awak,
i just want you know that, everyday is a bright day when i can see you smile. I know it's kinda not at the right time, but i believe it's not wrong, and i believe it's source of my energy, the happiness and love. :)

Kita mungkin tk berapa berjaya lg skrng, tapi saya percaya, satu hari nnti we will. As long as we hold to that strong faith, trusting each other, without giving up we'll move forward and one day, we will be as successful as Robert Tikiyosaki or like Angelina Jolie the one i most admire. hee. :D We will be the role model to everyone, gv impacts to ppl. We will make a difference to everyone. As others might think our goal is crap, but i believe that my dream and your dream will come true. :)

"Today was once a future that you expected so much in the past."

I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we're really not that different, me and you. :)

p/s : i Heart you.

love.

a Stupid notes .

2009-10-20T00:31:00.003+08:00

Personally when a girl said,
"I was waited for your reply" or asked,
"Why didn't you call me last night?" to a guy;

They didn't expect a sorry note from the guy. They just want you to know that they're thinking about you. They just need perhaps 10% of your attention in 24 hrs time if not 100%. A woman didn't ask 100% concentration for them. Enough to show them some care, enough with simple conversation to give them comfort.

A simple, "how's your day today?" or
"how's your meeting just now?" is more than enough.

A little note, may looks stupid for you. But for a woman, is a huge quick relief when they received. It just brighten their days.

They don't ask you to pamper them.
They don't want your money.
They don't need your 24/7 attention.

They just need a little care.
They just want to be loved.
and most importantly,
They love you, and thinking about you all the time.

love.

Running, running .

2009-10-03T12:06:00.005+08:00

Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up

Running, running
As fast as we can(As fast as we can)
Do you think we'll make it? (Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated

Running - No Doubt

love,

A little bit Unwell .

2009-09-29T22:14:00.005+08:00

Can't you see? I am tired.

"Awak ni lari kepada sesuatu ke lari daripada sesuatu?"

Dengan Tulus Ikhlas ..

2009-09-24T12:44:00.004+08:00

Berhati-hati dijalan raya, ingat org tersayang. :)
Selamat Hari Raya !

love.

Series of Baby Fatin .

2009-09-24T10:58:00.004+08:00

It's been awhile. Kinda bz with current projects. Hope everything gonna be fine and success. Hopefully. :)

Dikesempatan ini, ingin memohon maaf jika ada salah dan silap, terkasar bahasa atau terlajak kata. Halalkan makan minum. Selamat Hari Raya !

love.

I'll Be .

2009-09-09T23:47:00.005+08:00

Beautiful song that just makes me melted. :) Enjoy !

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

I'll Be by Edwin McCain

love,

I'm With You .

2009-09-09T23:19:00.005+08:00

With your ups and downs,
Through your happy and sorrow,
I'll be with you,
and i'll always do.

Zawani Zakaria

09.09.09

love.

What's on my mind?

2009-08-29T22:12:00.009+08:00

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what i made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that i've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

Leave out all the rest - Linkin Park

Because i've never been perfect.

love.

The Day I Have Gotta Live My Dreams .

2009-08-16T20:52:00.003+08:00

There are places in this world that aren't made out of stone. That there's something inside.. that they can't get to, that they can't touch. That's yours. That is HOPE.

The Shawshank Redemption (1994)

I had a great Saturday when i just spent time at home, cooking, and watching old movies with my housemate, Kuza. Yesterday, i watched The Shawshank Redemption, Seven Pounds and Ayat-Ayat Cinta (haha!). and we cooked Cheese and Herbs Pasta for the dinner. The previous week, watched Save The Last Dance and Close. There goes my weekend. Swweeet ! :D

Oh my favourite songs, by Athena Cage and Only You by 112. It's OST Save The Last Dance. Damn, i miss the steps, and the beat.

The hardest to recovery,
From the heartbreak of another kind
I'm still drying my tears
Getting over my own fears
in my life, so I wanna make sure this time
that I'm strong enough to give it my all.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem
you gotta work to get the cream,
On your hopes you must lean,
from your fears, you have to win yourself
It's all or nothing, give your everything.

All or Nothing by Athena Cage

Gotta stay strong and continue to walk uphill. :) Cheerio !

love.

Enough is just not Enough .

2009-08-13T08:42:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

Sometimes i just have to forget how i feel,
I just need to pretend everything is okay,
and remember what i deserve,
more than empty words and promises.

But hell pretending is just ain't my style,
Gotta take the risk and play it right,
Better say it now or never,
Take a chance and maybe we can be together.

Scared, i'm just scared to show i care,
Life can be cruel, feeling kinda strange,
Will he think me weak,
if i shiver when i speak.

Do i look like a fool,
if i don't play by the rule?
Maybe it's just not the right time.
But trust me, you've steal into my mind.

i act, i hide. Can i lie?

love.

Hid's Graduation Day !

2009-08-11T00:39:00.008+08:00

It's great pleasure to capture Hid's big day, on her Graduation Day. Congratulations Hid ! Too many fun and funny moments with you during the years. Really, it's great to know you ! Well Hid, hope you get a better job soon, and of course your parents must be proud of you ! ;) Love yahh !

Some of my favourite shots. :)

I just love this one. Love your expression .. :)

Finally, us ! haha.

And me, peace ! Thnks Hid for the picture ! :D

love.

Taman Negara Selai-Endau Rompin .

2009-08-06T09:24:00.003+08:00

It's nice to have some break and spend some times at jungles. Last Saturday i went to Taman Negara Selai-Endau Rompin with OARS members for 3 days. It was great trip, eventhough i'm not really into jungle trip thngy. lol. But yeah, it was great, and i think i fall in love with it. he he.

Taman Negara Selai is located at Johor was named after Kampung Selai, an Orang Asli village near the entrance. It takes about 4 hours to get there from Cyberjaya. As we arrived at entrance in the Sunday morning, there're 9 4x4 wheels were waiting for us to get in the Taman Negara. We camped at the first campsite called Lubuk Merekek, about 45 minutes from the entrance.

Seriously the scenary was mesmerizing. We camped beside the river. I never seen sungai yg sgt best mcm tu. hee. We manage to set up the tent quite fast eventhough it was raining. Lupa nk amik gmbr campsite and masa we set up the tent. haha. At night, we cooked our dinner in group, using mustin. Sardin dan nasi mentah pn bole jadi sgt sedap bila dh kebulur. kan? haha.

After our dinner, we had night walk around the forest, and visited an old Orang Asli house which made 100% woods and bamboo without any single nails. Terer gle kan? It was great experience. I manage to breakthrough my biggest fears, the dark. LOL. Oh did i mention that my feet was badly terseliuh just before i departed from MMU? gahh, mcm haram. But thnk god, i manage to follow all the activities.

On the 2nd day, we went for jungle trekking to the highest waterfalls, Takah Tinggi. It takes about 2 hours trekking up.

At the first check point (during trekking up).

At Takah Tinggi, we stopped there about 30 minutes. Sadly we can't swim there as several cases had happen before. I was really fascinated by the scenery.

We had our lunch at second check point on trekking down. One of our guide is frm Orang Asli. He introduce us a rare fruit that only happen once in 7 yrs which called buah Merekek. Rupa mcm manggis, tapi isi rasa masam2 sket. Sedap jgk la..

To Mr Driver, this is the reason why i don't like to say "1,2,3" when i'm taking picture. It turns out natural. :)

Our last stopped was at Lubuk Tapah, the base camp. I had chance to try water tubing ! Best la jgk, tapi mungkin sbb arus tk berapa kuat, so selalu tersekat kt batu-batu besar.

On the last day, we had free activity. Some of us started to pack thngs, and some went swimming for the last time. Seriously, this is my first time swimming in the deep river. Sgt best ! Ada org tu siap belaja berenang kt sana. and die berjaya ! haha. :P

We had maggie for our breakfast on the last day. lol.

The river.

I really had great time there. Wake up in the morning with the serene sounds around, can u imagine? Really, calming. it's great getaway. Till next holiday ~ :)

love.

The day that ONE day can change everything .

2009-07-31T09:22:00.003+08:00

I wake up this morning with grateful feeling, i'm still standing in the real world. I am not dreaming nor try to change an illusion to reality. I feel fresh surprisingly, like i slept for 10 hours. Like i had beautiful dream last night. I believe in fairy tales story u know?

Dear Diary,

I was sitting on a bench at the playground last night. I thought i was strong enough to tell the truth. Yes, you must be thinking i'd be strong enough to make it through. Time takes time, i can't hold on. I've draw the lines, but i crossed them too. It's too late to turn back, i know i just need to let it out.

Like i'm having strong guts inside, i started everything. I've mixed it up. i spoiled. I spilled the secret. I let myself looks like a fool. I let myself lose my control. For just one second, i lose it all.

Tuhan, aku keliru.
Apa ini dugaan Mu? Apa ini hanya ujian untuk ku?
Jika benar, berikan aku kekuatan.
Beri aku kekuatan untuk aku tempuh segala ujian ini, kesabaran untuk aku terus tenang dlm membuat keputusan. Tuhan, aku ini terlalu lemah bagai boleh disepak dek angin, bagai boleh ditampar hanya dgn satu tentangan mata.
Buta. Hati ini terlalu inginkan kebahagiaan. Mungkin kekosongan?
Ampunkan hambaMu yang daif ini.

I know things happen. I didn't plan for falling. You knew about it. I'm not that strong to keep it long enough. I'm just scared if i don't show it out. One thing you should know, you gv me something.

It's a little heart.
Maybe i'm just amazed by you.

love.

Anda Pilih Bahagia atau Sengsara?

2009-07-28T13:37:00.004+08:00

Anda pilih. cecece. :P That's the slogan for the camp that i attended last weekend. Me, Azfar and 5 other OARs member were there as fesi for Kem Belia Benci Dadah by Rakan Muda which held for 4 days at Impian Country Resort, Hulu Langat. There were about 36 participants from age 16-24, from all Selangor districts.

Kem Belia Benci Dadah is mainly to aware the young generations about the danger of misuse of drugs. I personally learn alot from the kem about the type of drugs, the effects, and the best was i get to know alot type of ppl there. The best moment was when i had a chance to share with my group member about their life experience, and about what they want in future. Some of them dtg dpd keluarga yg bermasalah, bekas penagih dadah, and mcm-mcm. I thank god for giving this chance, sbb i think sikit sebanyak i've inspire some of them about how precious life is, and how strong we need to be when we're at the verge of breaking down. Dan yang paling penting, utk mengelakkan diri dpd social problem even we're at the state of high stress level. :)

On the last day, after closing, we were served with variety of local fruits by orang kampung Semungkis. Whoaa sgt heaven wa cakap sama lu. ehehe. Sgt best ! Punyela lama mengidamkan durian and manggis, akhirnya dpt jgk merasa. hee. Yang paling obviously enjoy the durian was me, Asrul and Aizal. haha. Makan smpai nk muntah. LOL. I had a good time during the whole camp. :D

Here's some of the pictures during the camp !

Live life to the fullest, jauhi dadah berbahaya ! ;P

love.

Human & Nature .

2009-07-23T12:33:00.003+08:00

They just can't be separated.
Save the earth, save the people.
Let LOVE fill the world.

"Make a better place, For you and for me"

Click here for color version.

love.

Bon Odori 2009 .

2009-07-21T23:41:00.000+08:00

Ah akhirnya jadi jgk plan nk pegi Bon Odori. The Bon Odori was held last Saturday with full of joy. Me, Shikin and Idy arrived at the stadium around 7pm. And the first thing we did? Of cos lah merayau-rayau di food stalls. hehe. Each of us bought 1 pack of yakult with very cheap price, rm3.00 per pack. Murah kn? *we finished the whole pack within 3 hours, minum yakult mcm minum mineral water. haha* :D

After that we continue wandered around the food stalls and i bought unagi and some sushi. While waiting for Azfar, Tumi, Kerry and the rest of friends, me, Shikin and Idy decided to eat first. We finally met Tumi, Kerry and the rest at 8.30pm. The Bon Odori finished at 9.45pm.

After the Bon Odori, we headed to OU to watch Public Enemies. And all i can say is that, Public Enemies agak membosankn. Some of us siap tertido. haha. Arrived at Shikin's hse at 3.30am, and i had to woke up at 6.15am the next morning as i got seminar at 9.30am in Subang. Yeah i only had my sleep for 2 hrs. The next monday, i had bad fever. Great wasn't it? LOL.

These are some of the pictures during Bon Odori. ;)

Group photo ! (Tumi, i took this frm ur facebook. hee)

Huaaa, gotta hv my sleep now. Esk bnyk btl keje nk kene siapkn. Yeah padan muka sendiri, sape suruh melengahkan masa. Ok, chow !

love.

12 AM .

2009-07-17T00:06:00.004+08:00

Dear diary,

Why there are times i can't long enough to keep my patient?
Are you really here, or am i just dreaming?
I am falling slowly,
Can't you see?
Can you feel the pieces of my melody?
I can hardly say the right words anymore,
And it always fool me.
I wonder if i could replace that tiny heart you've been missing,
I wonder if i could be the future you always wanted,
For you're everything to me.

or
Maybe, i am just dreaming.

Zawani Zakaria

You truely exist, the. green. stripes. book.

love.

When a Girl Loves a Guy .

2009-07-15T00:39:00.004+08:00

I am so proud of myself when i finally had a great deal in selling the camera today. Dpt la untung sket. hee. And to celebrate it *ceh celebrate la sgt*, i went for a movie with Azfar and we watched Ice Age 3. Man, Ice Age 3 was awesome. Funny, comel gle ! In the middle of the movie, i realize i laughed too loud mengalahkan kanak2 yg ada kt dlm cinema. lol. Over-excited eh? :P But seriously, Ice Age is a hilarious fun movie u shouldn't miss. :D

Err apa kena mengena ngan title entry? :P It's just a brief what i love most about today. hee. :)

Well, i was 'cooking' maggie when i heard one of my housemate cried in the other room tonite. I thought she was talking to somebody and crying or sthng. But it's getting worse and i sneak out her room to see if she's ok. Obviously she didn't. She didn't get over her past relationship totally. I talked to her for a minutes, tried to make her feel good again, but i know it's all depends on her to make thngs better.

Yes, it's about when a girl love a guy. It's about healing the break-up. It's about when we couldn't make up, and moving on when the good thngs in the past shadowed everything. Sucks rite? Trust me, i know how it feels.

When i'm done talking to her, i sat outside and reminiscing. Somehow her story reminds me of my past. I've been through that situation. I've been burned a lot, hurt a lot. I've been through the state i nearly killed myself when i love a guy too much. The day when i couldn't stand on my own feet, when i couldn't moving on with my life.

I let myself living in despair, in guilty and blamed myself for everything had done between the relationship. Love is blind. No? My heart was blinded by the love. You'll keep all the good memories, and you left all the fights and arguments behind when you're in healing process. You'll try to fix thngs which already broken. It makes you weak, it makes you feel like there's no one can replaced him anymore.

But trust me, it's all worth the pain. Sun will shine after the rain. :)

Alhamdulillah.. Today, i am glad to be who i am.
Every single thngs happen in my life build me to be a tougher person. Time by time i learn to face the real world. It taught me to see life in many side, in different colors. It's not easy, but it's worth 1000 times.

Well girl, all you need to do is to learn to love yourself more. To appreciate yourself, and believe that you could stand by your own feet no matter what happen. If it's not you, then who? Your life, your future, your everythng is all depends on you. Not him, no one. It's just YOU. Take a very good care of your own heart. Build strong faith in you. You're sure you can survive it. :)

Tiba-tiba rasa lega. Ntah? *senyum*

love.

A day with Crazy-Fun Couple .

2009-07-13T11:32:00.004+08:00

Last Thursday, i spent almost the whole day with K.ina and Samier to take their wedding preparation pictures. It was pleasure to spent time with them. :)

This is at Rias Indah Pengantin in Ampang to see their wedding clothes and pelamin. Rias Indah Pengantin really hv a great choice of baju pengantin, with variety of fashions. I loike ! hehe.

K.ina showing Samier's picture masa zaman muda-muda, a rockstar ! haha.

I love this one, happy couple !

Finally, at Wafito ! Chocolate-peanut waffle yummy !

Visit their wedding webpage : Samier & Ina

Cheers !

love.

used DSLR for sale ! sold

2009-07-04T10:36:00.004+08:00

used Sony DSLR-A100 for SALE ! *SOLD*

I am actually selling it for my father. :) My father bought the camera last 2 yrs and he only use it rarely since he always have me to take the family pictures (i use mid-range camera je, a very classic EOS 300D 28-300mm f/3.5-6.3. My father's camera too. hehe). He decided to let it go with a cheap price. Yes, CHEAP price. Starting price, at RM1700 *nego. Reason to let go, he wanna upgrade himself to semi-pro camera. Woot ! *tercabar saya* haha. Tkpe tkpe, soon aniz ! :D Okay, this is the description :

The product, as you can see at the pictures above. (Sorry for the bad quality pictures as it was taken using my sister handphone.)

Rarely used. The condition 9/10.

Tak pernah jatuh as my father keep all his cameras really well smpai kadang-kadang tak kasi anak-anak die pn pegang. haha.

Comes with tele Zoom lens 18-200mm f/3.5-6.3 (perfect zoom lens i can say !)

Comes with rechargeable battery,charger, manuals, USB cable, and software CD-ROM.

FREE 1GB CompactFlash Card.

FREE tripod.

Camera Specifications (Quick Overview) :

* 10.2 megapixels
* Compatible with all Sony and Konica Minolta A-mount lenses
* Built in Anti-Shake system (YES ! The key features : Super SteadyShot in-camera Image Stabilization. Allow you to shoot effectively at higher shutter speeds even in very low light with minimum blur from shaky hands or fast-moving subjects. Camera lain selalu nye in lens, bkn in camera.
* 3 photos per second
* ISO settings from 100 to 1600
* Maximum shutter speed of 1/4000th of a second
* 1.5 times crop factor
* 2.5 inch LCD with anti-reflective coating
* Stores photos on CompactFlash
* 9-point autofocus

It's all yours at RM1700 *nego
(Note: For serious buyers only. Strictly no return/refund. As you got a chance to hv a look first before you buy it.)

So, what are you waiting for? All i cay say that this is a perfect DSLR for the beginner and spontaneous photographer ! All-in dude ! Don't miss this chance.

If you're interested or have any enquiries, you can call me at 017-2552767 or just e-mail me at aniz_86@yahoo.com. Okeh? Oh if you wanna see the camera before you buy it (yela takut org ckp sy tipu kan?) you can contact me too. Remember, a picture speaks a thousand words ~ hee. :D

Cheers ! Have a nice weekend ~

love.

Letter of a Heart .

2009-07-03T00:05:00.004+08:00

Walking down the street alone,
So cold, i didn't know if i can go through on my own.
The skies seems so clear,
But how come my heart full of tears.

Did i let the love slip away?
Tell me if telling goodbye is such an easy way.
At times it heals,
But how come i feel like i lost everything.

I smile, i laugh.
I can't speak out like i did.
I fake, i lied,
Can you hear me crying?

Who doesn't look for someone to hold,
Who can love you without being told?
They keep going, and coming,
But i know something is missing.

Zawani Zakaria

I may looks so strong to hold, but deep down inside, i'm only human.
A feeling you just can't resist sometimes.
Sepahit apa pun ini, kehidupan pasti harus diteruskan.
Semoga diberi kekuatan.
Semoga mampu kulawan kesepian.
Semoga suatu hati nanti, akan datang ketenangan.
Yang abadi.

love.

Be Me . Be You .

2009-06-30T01:14:00.004+08:00

"You must see yourself happy if happiness is the state you are seeking."

This is what i often do when i *ehem* when i feel unstable, or feeling down. :) hehe. Get a book, write a rhythm or poem, listen to my playlist, or hv a walk alone. But most of the time, i'll spend time with any interesting books and my playlist. It work on me somehow. Ah tp reality is, knowledge can be useless without we apply it in a real world. Like what i read in Yoga Of Wealth which stated,

"You can hv perfect awareness and strong self-belief, but if you still cannot bring yourself to act when your chances comes, you will never move forward in your life. Stagnate in all of your knowledge."

It's true. I am one of it who always miss a chance when the right time comes. Sometimes we tend to think too much, act less. Speak more, progression zero. Typical isn't it? I must improve. Aniz, sila beri konsentrasi. Sila back on tracks. Tolong fokus. *breath in, breath out* Okeh ! Sy mau tido dulu. lol. Tmrw is a new day. I hope everythng's gonna be fine and better.

Oh i shall share with you this. Life is complete when you complete it, when you find that 'thing' to complete it. Mcm comel kan ayat tu? hehe. And what is that 'thing'? You need to find it. :) Ah my pillow is missing me. :P Good Night everyone !

love.

Tribute to Mikaeel (MJ) .

2009-06-27T15:20:00.004+08:00

Remembering the King of Pop, Mikaeel (MJ). His song and music will always be remembered.
One of my favourite song,

Will You Be There

love.

The Melody I Wish .

2009-06-25T23:02:00.007+08:00

Nobody knows what you're thinking inside,
Nobody knows what the future will bring to us.

All i know is,
Life is rich,
Love is pure,
Life is complete and beautiful

So even when you feel pretty blue,
Remember there are always another bright colors awaits you.

Zawani Zakaria

Loneliness somehow gv me some space to think, to create, to reminiscing, makes me whole and makes me feel human. :)

love.

Detik Demi Detik .

2009-06-24T21:01:00.003+08:00

Ah aku sebenarnya bagai melindungi perasaan sendiri. It keep screaming inside, bagai menjerit-jerit utk diluahkan .. But i can't. i just can't. Belum ada daya, masih terikat dgn bayang-bayang sendiri. Bodoh. Takut? Memberi motivasi kpd org lain, tapi kau sebenarnya masih lemah. Ya aku masih lemah. Namun mungkin, jauh lebih baik daripada apa yang aku sangka. Terima kasih Tuhan, kau masih memberi peluang padaku.

Jika ditanya, apa yang paling aku impikan dulu. ialah mati. Aku hanya ingin mati daripada terus hidup dgn dosa. Daripada terus membebani ibubapaku dgn karung dosa-dosaku. Aku lemah. Terlalu lemah.

Namun Tuhan Maha Penyayang. Ini adalah hadiah paling besar utk ku. Aku fikir, aku tak akan dpt kesempatan utk merasa dunia ini dgn lebih tenang, dgn lebih merasa seperti manusia. Aku silap. Tuhan itu lebih bijak mengaturkan jalan hidup hamba-hambanya. Lebih mengetahui di sebalik sesuatu kejadian. Mungkin kadang kita memberontak. Why this is all happen to me. Why me. Kenapa bkn mereka? Kenapa jalan hidup mereka seems all perfect. Tipu lah jika aku kata aku tak pernah memberontak. Aku sebenarnya dalam proses utk belajar utk menjadi lebih tenang. Lebih berfikir sblm bercakap. Lebih rasional, dan bkn hanya mengikut perasaan.

Aku perlukan kekuatan skrng. I need to find a way to get myself stable. Kadang aku lemas dgn perasaan sendiri. Again, bodoh. Sudahlah dgn perasaan bodoh tu. You have something more important to settle. Without perasaan bodoh tu, you gonna be fine. Really fine. You do not need it for this time being. *repeat again and again. sigh*

Ahhhh shit. I hate this feeling. Aku perlukan konsentrasi dlm hidup. Priority. Set you priority girl.

Maaf, otakku bagai berselirat. Mcm hape je. I need some air outside. Mungkin dpt membantu.

P/s :
Kpd kau, tentang tadi, jgn terlalu mempersoalkan tentang hidup, kerana makin bnyk persoalan, makin kaku kau disitu. Tak kemana. Seperti aku dahulu. Kau hebat. Kesabaran kau, mungkin membatasi kesabaran aku. Kau lebih tenang. Cuma we need to admit that sometimes, life's selfish. and we need to adapt with that. So just smile, and i know you can get through it. Remember, life's kind when you believe. :)

love.

Oh-so-simple .

2009-06-23T17:35:00.000+08:00

Wanna get healthy snacks? Get tired of eating fruit at the same way? Try this ! *ceh padahal dh ramai tahu.* hehe. But anyway, this is my favourite!

I love orange. but paling malas nk kupas kulit. tapi takkan nk mkn orange dgn kulit skali kan? so nk tak nk, terpaksalah kupas dulu..

So, all you need ..

2 oranges
1 spoonful of sweetened milk or better known as susu pekat manisss *nk lebih manis, bole tmbh beberapa sudu yg anda nk, tp jgn lebih2, nnti tk jd healthy snack dh*
4 cubes of ice. *nk lebih pn tk pe, sukati anda*

Cara-cara :
1. Peel the orange using knife, cut it into small cubes. Put it in a bowl.
2. Mix the orange with a spoonful of sweetened milk.
3. Add some ice. and Tadaaaa !

Yep ready to serve.

Senang sgt smpai rasa menyampah kn? Yea, it's too easy smpai kadang2 org pandang remeh tentang benda yg mudah tapi tk mengamalkannya, lagi2 in taking 2 serving of fruits everyday. *reminder to myself actually. hehe.*

Okay, sebenarnye ayah sy yg start buat mcm ni dulu. hee. Ayah mmg pakar tentang makanan utk kesihatan. So, terima kasih ayah. :D

love.

Still got the Blues .

2009-06-21T11:51:00.000+08:00

Location : Pantai Chendering, Terengganu

.. Used to be so easy
To fall in love again
But I found out the hard way
It's a road that leads to pain
I found that love is more than just a game
Playing to win
But to lose just the same

Still Got The Blues - Gary Moore

love.

Post Wedding : Nuar & Fadiah

2009-06-21T11:23:00.009+08:00

I was overjoyed when i arrived at Pantai Chendering for the post wedding with the crew and the couple on 7th June. The post wedding was held in 3 different places; Masjid Kristal, Pantai Tok Jembal and last place was Pantai Chendering. Seriously the scenery was great, really amazing. Rupanye bnyk lg tempat2 kt terengganu i haven't explore lg. Thnks to the couple for brought us to this lovely place. ;) Enjoy !

Last from me, semoga K.Fady & Abg Nuar berbahagia smpai ke akhir hayat. Terengganu, i'll be back again ! hee. :D

More Pictures at www.flickr.com/blissfulaniz
and B.E's blog will be updated soon.
Cheerss !

love.

Wedding Reception : Nuar & Fadiah

2009-06-19T14:33:00.007+08:00

I'm so excited when i get a chance to shoot my senior in school, Kak Fadiah for her wedding. I haven't go to tganu quite a long time since i left school in 2003. Well, excited of cos. Thnks to Abg Nuar and K.Fady for the warm welcome and kind hospitality. I had a great time there shooting with Afiq and Adi. Thnks guys for the help, and oh the road trip was fun too ! These are some shots during wedding reception and i'll post the post wedding later.

love.

Bijak Vs. Pandai ?

2009-06-13T21:58:00.004+08:00

Ysterday i had a conversation with my 3rd sister, Alang. We're talking about general mindset, bisness, future planning, pasal kenapa kawen kene pakai baju formal and make up tebal2 (haha!) and ntah apa2 lg yg merepek but beneficial. hehe. We discussed about my current activity, past and future my planning for the next 6 months and targets for 1 yr. Wahaa sounds serious do we? haha, kami mmg suke berdiskusi seperti itu. Ok, back to the topic. In the middle of conversation,

......
Saya : Hm, i don't thnk i'm going to be as active as dulu in ***. It's pretty much costy for me. mileage lg, ticketing, bla bla. kadang2 bole la, ni if everyday pn u need to spend ave rm25/day. Gle bnyk kuar duit. I can't handle the ppl too.

Alang : Alang dh nmpk tu since mula i met them lg. Tp awk kate tak, diorang bagus pe sume.

Saya : Some of them mmg bagus. strong mindset. They built me to be like now, to hv strong vision. *** were good. Cuma some of them, err. Hm but i know it's my fault sbb i thought i can handle it.

Alang : To be great, awk kene pandai set ur priority.

Saya : yeah. Along ada baca dlm buku tu (It's Not About How Good You Are, It's How Good You Want To Be by Paul Arden). It says, don't look for the next opportunity, the one you have in hands is the opportunity. I've try my best to hold on and gv my best. Tp i need to thnk bout the problem occurs jgk. need to reduce the cost, and so on. Hmph.

Alang : Awak tahu tk apa beza org bijak ngan org pandai?

Saya : aAaa, tahu kot. apa dia?

Alang : Org bijak belaja dpd kesalahan org lain. Org pandai belaja dpd kesalahan sendiri. So awk nk jd apa?

Saya : Hm, dua2 perlu kot.

Alang : Awk kene blaja kesalahan dpd dua2 source. Tp kalau bole kene la jd org bijak.

.......
Continue talking and gelak gelak .. :P

Kalau bole sume org nk jd org bijak. If you got chance to do so, do it. Rather you waste your time on doing the wrong thng. I mean bkn benda yg salah. Cuma maybe unbenificial thng. :P Honestly, i've spent half of my life in experiencing. Yep, konon jd org pandai. haha. I do this and that, then only i admit what and where i go wrong. It might be a loss for me. But, mungkin cara tu yg menyebabkan minda sy terbuka. Maybe? hehe. It depends on oneself. Every little mistakes told me something that i still hv chance to go right. So how about you? Smart or clever?

Aniz, tlg la jd smart and bijak ! GET UP and WORK IT ALL OUT ! :D

Words remain words without one step ahead .

love.

Heart Sick .

2009-06-13T12:04:00.002+08:00

This is how i felt when i found out my pictures in CF card is corrupted . Ergh !Shheeesshh !
%^&*^#$@#@ ! :((

AaaaAAaaaa ! *speechless*

One Fine Day .

2009-06-11T03:17:00.002+08:00

3AM and i'm still awake. With my tiring mind and exhausted body, i dont think i can continue the editing. Siap tersengguk2 dpn pc. aihh. I need longgg sleep, can i? Next week the new semester will start, and rasa mcm tk bersedia lg je utk start my new lesson, and to start doing my fyp. aAa FYP ! isk isk. I hope i can cope with it well. Really, i can't wait to finish my stdy ! Uhu. *luahan hati* :P

Ah anyway,

Here a picture from Terengganu. :) I haven't finish transferring and process all pictures yet. So look up for more pictures later. :)

. cause You & I both love .

Off to bed ~ Chow ! Good Night !

love.

Tick Tock Tick Tock .

2009-06-04T13:11:00.008+08:00

And i'm 23 yrs old !

Dear diary,
i supposed to write this entry on my birthday, 1st June. Tp tk smpat kerana too many thngs need to settle. So today, i'm proud to announce that i'm officially 23 yrs old ! hehe. What's so special about 23? Em, nothing much. It meant alot because masa umur mak sy 23 lah dia kahwin dan sy dilahirkan pada tahun berikutnya. hee, tibe2 je. *My mom specially emphasize about this when she called me to wish happy birthday* Motif? Lol, i don't knw. But yes, i have a lot of planning for this yr on my 23rd, and for the next yrs ahead. My career, personal life, car, house. Marriage? Err, tgu dulu la eh mama? hehe. It's a long journey to go, and yet, i know right now i am not daydreaming. Not anymore. I'll make it happen, i'll make it true. I know life is not perfect, always ups and downs. But i believe, life's kind. When you're down, it's a one step closer to your dream. Just never give in. I just pray to God, to bless me with the greater strength, and with a clearer heart for me to achieve my dream and better life. I'll try to fix my bad temper, my harsh words semasa berckp, and some other bad attitude in me. I know i swear a lot sometimes. Oh and my clumsiness too. ish ish. So, wish me luck ! ngee. :P

Special thanks to Mama and Ayah yang bnyk bersabar dgn kerenah anak pertama nya. haha.
Thank you to Angah, Alang and Adik for all the stupid-est, fun, and mcm2 moment bersama.
Thank you to Rafiq, for guiding me alot in photography. Thnk you sifu !
Thank you to Azfar, for being my driver. haha joke. but you help me alot. :) *TGI Friday next week ok ! hee.*
Thank you to Bee and K.ina for the funn moment together.
Thank you to Qase, sbb bnyk teman sy ketika sy down. *Ye, igt tk moment di tepi swimming pool? hehehe. ;P *
Thank you to Aizam, kerana kau bnyk ubah aku walaupun kau agak harsh. :P
Thanks to Fairuz, without your kindness, i don't knw where i gonna turn to. :)
And thank you to everyone, and all my other frnds.

I wish for the best. Regards.

love.

Engagement : Hazly & Lin

2009-06-03T23:47:00.000+08:00

To Abg Hazly and Kak Lin, semoga berbahagia ke akhir hayat. Regards from me. :)

love.

Wedding Reception : Hazly & Lin

2009-06-01T17:18:00.006+08:00

Taken on last Saturday. Located at Sg. Buloh. It was a long day, with Bee as a replacement photographer. We enjoy the day although there're some problems occur during the shooting. These are some of the shots. :)

more pictures at : www.flickr.com/photos/blissfulaniz

have a nice day everyone !

love.

wOot woOt !

2009-05-30T21:51:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah, everythng went smooth for today's shooting, Kak Lin & Abg Hazly's Reception. Aha yrsterday was exception. Ysterday agak sucks, but i manage to handle it, i guess. haha. Harap-harap Asri tk marah. :P But overall, me and Bee had fun today.

Me: Say what bee?
Bee: P to the E, to the A, to the C, to the E. Peacee yaw !

P/S: The pictures will be updated later kerana gua dh kepenatann yg amat. sumpah ngantok. ok, chow.

love.

Random-nessss .

2009-05-27T21:44:00.006+08:00

love.

The Day When He's Just Not That Into You .

2009-05-25T00:46:00.006+08:00

Well, it's a sunday night. I should be in Rasa Sayang right now. But i dont feel like going. So i just stayed at home and watched the movie that i waited for soo long to watch, "He's just Not that into you". hee. The movie was aweesomee ! Despite of Scarlett Johannsson, the hot yoga instructor, and Drew Barrymore yang cute, i just love how the story goes. Witty, funny, and it's just beautiful story. :) I don't like to write a sinopsis so much. So i end up with this inspired quote which quoted by Gigi at the end of the story. Enjoy. Oh not to forget, i love the Friday, i'm in love by The cure, the OST song too. hee.

"every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. but sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is just moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope."

Yes, never gv up hope, no matter what you do, in every aspects. :)

love.

8 AM .

2009-05-21T09:15:00.009+08:00

Spend your 15 mins every morning with hearty breakfast will guarantee you a brighter day. Eh tp kalau you jatuh tangga atau tersepak batu on your way to anywhere, jgn salah kn sy. :P While reading newspaper, or listen to Hot.fm Am crew is the best. Hee.

My breakfast of the Day :

2 half boiled eggs
3 slices of breads
Marigold Cranberry n Apple juice mix with fresh milk <<- pernah cuba? Cuba lah ! :D

Okay, sambung blaja. Yess ptg ni last paperrr ! WEee ~ Wish me luck! ok, FOCUS !

love.

Life's like playing card? No?

2009-05-17T13:30:00.003+08:00

From my previous entry, 'aw Pokka again?' .

"i wish a balanced life, love and laugh. no one wish to be sadder. the happiest moment in one's life is to love and being loved by someone else. give us the courage to move on, to live this life no matter how hard it is. who's perfect? expect me to be one? forever i won't be, cause nobody does. everyone made mistakes, so do i. and so do you. but mistakes will always be a mistake if you do not try to improve it, if you don't try to change it for good. it's hard, i know. but it's for ourself, for our own happiness. i believe that life's perfect when happiness is there, no matter what you do. believe in ourself."

***********

and it makes me smile. Yes believe. :)

Why i love blogging? Personally, blogging could be your best friend, your best diary, when you can write anythng, your personal point of view, your review, your poem, put your pictures, ah pendek kate sume bole ltk. Mungkin org kate, mcm nk overexposed diri sendiri je? actly tidak. It's not to overexposed oneself. It's actly teach us to value every single thng that happen in our life. To appreciate ourself more. Believe it or not, when it comes to certain period of time, you will realize how blogging can be meaningful. You will smile, when you read your old posts and your entry can be your reminder how special you are when you're down. When you thnk life's unfair, you're wrong because life's being totally fair to you. Everythng happen for reason. It might take some times to reveal the reason why it happens. It doesn't matter because yang paling penting, we appreciate every single thng in our life. That's why we called life's a journey. By blogging, i express myself into my own words, into my own rhythm. Like how i like it. :) So no offense. I hope. hee.

Reminder to Myself : Hello, ur exm is on 20th ok? tk sedar lg? gahh, sy cuak kerana sy begitu rilex. :( chaiyokk ! FOCUSSS !

ok chow. i'm wasting too much time. haha.

love.

I Remember .

2009-05-16T22:00:00.008+08:00

When I almost left out, when i almost gave up,

I remember,
Your hope .
Your love .
Your wish .
Your tenderness .
Because you're the first on my mind. Mom & Dad

I'll remember,
your dream Merc kompressor,
your dream vacation to Mecca,
your dream house,
my EOS 50D,
my dream Audi,
my dream condo,
my mission,
and most importantly,
to support you, my love one.

I'll make it real,
It's a long journey,
It's not easy,
and i am on my way,
I'm gonna be right there.

Zawani Zakaria

love.

the Fighter .

2009-05-13T16:54:00.003+08:00

Bagan Lalang, Sepang. 12/5/09, 6.56pm.

.. Because life is about fight for our future.

love.

No doubt .

2009-05-13T12:17:00.006+08:00

.. because it's all about hope,
and you just need to believe with all your soul.

God, i know there's a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on.
I never let my fears conquer me
cos i know in my heart what i can be.

Holding On by Taufiq Batisah

Bismillahi tawakkal 'alAllah.

love.

If Everyone Cared .

2009-05-12T02:04:00.003+08:00

No one cried.

From Rumah Limpahan Kasih. I had a really good time with them. They are fun, friendly, and always smile like there's nothing goes wrong. :)

POV :
We tend to neglect small thngs that might effect our whole life. Awareness. Care ppl around you. God bless.

love.

Love is Rainbow .

2009-05-09T17:49:00.008+08:00

I had a splendid weekend last week. A hectic weekend i supposed but i enjoyed it so much. On last Saturday and Sunday, i joined Mal and Bear to Shah Alam for the solemnisation of Munira and Fauzy. I learned a lot of skills from Bear and getting ready to spark the next job. I just can't wait !

On Sunday i had a Charity Event with my colleagues and it was held at Rumah Limpahan Kasih, Puchong. It was fun to spend time with them, play with them, to see their happy faces and i had a really good time with them indeed especially with Fatih, a 5 yrs old boy. Dia sgt sgt comel, with mata yang sepet dan sgt la peramah. hehe. Looking forward to spend time with them again. I wish to have sorang anak angkat, when i hv my stable financial in 1 yr time, insyaAllah. ehe. :)

Well, this is from Solemnisation of Fauzy & Munira.

love.

A Little Bit of Something .

2009-04-28T13:39:00.001+08:00

I pray for patience.

I pray for strength.

Because without You, i can't go far. dan saya rasa agak weak and i can't focus like i did, like 2 months before. and I beg you God, give me chance to finish what i've started, to finish it well, and to be someone my parents and everyone can be proud of.

love.

The Day I'm Gonna Be A Shining Star, Fancy Clothes and Fancy Car.

2009-04-23T11:16:00.009+08:00

And then you'll see, i gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows who you are.

So live your life,
Instead of chasing that paper,
Live your life,
You got no time for no haters,
So live your life,
No telling you where it will take you,
So i just live my life.

Live Your life by Rihanna Ft. T.I

Today, i realize what's the power of sharing and how it change the way i take thngs personally. It doesn't matter if you're the one who share thngs, or you're the one who listen to it.

When i share thngs, my journey, or my feeling, or when i motivating other ppl, i am actly motivating myself. I am actly reminding myself. I am actly, attracting the positive vibration that might be fade slowly before.

And when i listen to other's journey, or their feeling and when they gving me motivation, i learn to accept, i learn to listen more, speak less, i learn to visualize, and i learn to change. .

I am building myself. I am blur, and i am slow. But it's ok, cos i know though it might take some times, i'm gonna be far, i'm gonna get what i want. I really inspired by the song sang by Rihanna, Live Your Life. I love the rap part by T.I.

"Nevermind what haters say, ignore them 'til they fade away.
Amazing they ungreat for after all the game I gave away.
Safe to say I paved the way, for you can't get paid today.
You still be wasting days away, nah had I never saved the day."

"Some move away to make a way not move away cause they afraid.
I'll go back to the hood and all you ever did was hate away.
I pray for patience but they make me want to face away."

"Where you from, who you know, what you make and what kind of car you in.
Seems as though you lost sight of whats important with the positive.
And checks into your bank account, and you're about poverted.
Your values is a disarrayed, prioritized are horribly.
Unhappy with the riches cause you piss poor morraly.
Ignoring all prior advice and fore warning.
And we might be full of ourselves all of a sudden aren't we?"

See, not all raps are bad. :P Neutralize the negative, and surely we will be positive.

Reminder to myself : Again, focus ! Time won't wait for ya.

Love.

NOTED !

2009-04-14T16:52:00.004+08:00

Well nothing much to share.
I totally need a break right now.
Too many thngs need to settle down. Gah !
Assgmnt, lab report, photoblog, business planning and MIDTERM TESTT !

So to sum up everything, this is my shout out of the week :

I NEED A VACATION !! :(

My Wishlist :
> Trip to Boracay Island, Filipine. (4D/3N)
> EOS 500D. *big grins*
> Trip to Sipadan Island, Sabah. (4D/3N)

I hope everythng's gonna be fine. and i hope i could get my beautiful getaway as soon as i finish 'em all. Yes, gonna settle 'em soon. AaaaaAAaa i can't wait. *take a deep breath* Okay, focus focus.

Reminder for myself : JGN MALAS ! WORK VERY DAMN HARD. FOCUS.

love.

Melawan Kesepian .

2009-04-06T02:11:00.003+08:00

1.21PM, still awake.
I couldn't sleep. Maybe i took too much caffeine today.

Dear Diary,
While slipped through my old entries, reminiscing through over the past yrs of my life,
i realize there're so many 'spontaneous' incidents happen in between.
April 2008, will not be the same as April 2009.
Yes, there will be no accidents in life. Good or bad, there're always be a reason.
It happen so fast, you just can't stop.
I'd become what i can't be.
I wished for something worthless.
I leaned on someone feckless.
But one thing right now,
Relationship, friendship, happiness and sorrow, it's just .. priceless.
Ups and downs, complete me to be a better man.
I was burned, but it's just another lesson learned.
Laughter and tears, always be my best meditation.
For the better or worst,
I'll never stop moving.
I'll never stop walking, till the end of my life.

Zawani Zakaria

***********

Listening to : Melawan Kesepian

Apapun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti
Air mata tertahan
Waktu untuk dijatuhkan

Nanti kita kan tahu
Betapa bijaknya hidup
Sepahit apapun ini
Pelajaran yang berarti

Semoga kepergianmu
Tak akan merubah apa pun
Semoga mampu ku lawan
Kesepianku .

Apapun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti ..

love.

Cuppa Coffee Made My Day Brighter !

2009-04-02T11:49:00.006+08:00

Yes, i just can't live without coffee.

I'm not that crave to coffee before i reached my 20's. Eheh, mcm dh tua sgt je aku ni. To be clear, i hate coffee when i was 18. Selalu merungut kenapalaa org suka sgt minum coffee, apa laa yg best sgt kt coffee ni. But now, here you go, i am addicting to it, i'm loving it till i think it's too much, too bad for my health.

At this moment, coffee is my best mate when i'm stress, the best drink to chill out, the best breakfast, the best companion semasa study. hehe. I've read so many articles revealing the secret about coffee, the bad and good thng about coffee. So to get myself moderate in caffeine intake, i gotta control it.

Addicting to coffee doesn't mean you need to drop at Starbucks everyday, chill out at Dome with your friends regularly. kan? Simple atmosphere at home, chill out at the balcony with your coffee is best enough for me. To make my coffee taste *umphh!*, i add Van Houtan Pure Soluble Cocoa Powder. To hv some chunkie in my coffee, i add crushed hazelnut into it. Put some ice. Voilaa ~ The best homemade coffee. haha. :P See? We always need to spice up our life. Eh our coffee. hehe. Nk beli coffee pn tk yah mahal2. I drink Gold Nescafe. Nanti dh ada rumah sendiri, i'll buy the coffee maker, put it at barista corner. Aww. Eheh, lebih2 plk.

What i love ..
@ Theobroma Chocolate Lounge : Princess Of Iceland & Snow White Mocha (RM10.50-RM12.00)
- Seriously, i am sooo in love with the drinks. Yes, two thumbs up for them !

@ Starbucks : Java Chip Frappe & Green Tea Frappe (RM11.00-RM13.00)
- I love the Java chip inside! and that's how i inspire myself to put hazelnut chunkie in my coffee. hehe.

@ OldTown White Coffee : Nanyang Memorably & Ice White Coffee (RM3.50-RM4.50)
- I love the atmosphere, especially at Oldtown at Bangsar South City. The price range also not bad.

@ToastBox : Ice Coffee (rm2.50)
- Kopi kampung nye sgt kawwww ! ;P

So, for those coffee lover, do share with me what's ur favourite and how you love about your coffee. And do share with me how you spice up your coffee too. :D

Hv a great day everyone ! and don't forget to bright up your day with cuppa coffee ~

love.

Save the day . Let's have darker night . Earth Hour 2009 .

2009-03-29T20:42:00.007+08:00

Ysterday Afiq invited me to join him shooting for the Earth Hour for his assignment job. I was excited as he said we gonna shoot from the roof top of Darby Park apartment. But because of some problem, we gotta find another better port to shoot the scenery of KL. At 4.45pm, me and Afiq wandered around looking for the best building utk kami jadikan shooting port. Dpd Bangsar, to BB, then to Jln Ampang, we kinda disappointed sbb masih tk dpt cari port yg best.

At 6pm Afiq decided to meet his friend, Wawa (she's a Utusan photographer) at KLCC, then we headed to Jln Ampang again. Luckily at last, we found better view at bangunan hostel next to Hospital Bersalin KL. It was great night. Even i was quite tired after staying up for about 48hrs before, i won't missed a chance to shoot with Afiq, the siifuuuu. hehe.

Thanks to Afiq for inviting me and belanja sy McD, and really nice to meet you, Wawa. Hope we can meet again ! :D

Here're before, during, and after Earth Hour .

7.37pm
8.27pm
8.27pm
8.30pm
8.31pm
9.30pm
9.34pm

A hearted thank you to >Mr. Afiq.

Let's save the earth ppl !

love.

When I Lost My Little Brain ..

2009-03-26T15:51:00.004+08:00

Grateful. Yep, that's all i can say. Relieved. Happy. Hm semua la perasaan yg bagus2 tu.. :)
Last week, i felt like something is shadowing my mind. Something yg membuatkan aku rasa tk best, resah, and restless. I don't know what and why and i can't find the solution. It's like something unsettled.

But i feel relieved after talking to kak Ainor last night. I finally found out what's my problem. My real problem. A stupid problem. I'm thinking and concentrating too much of the thing i didn't want. How good is that? I am attracting bad things as much as i want the good things which result me zero progression. Duhh. Silly lily.

Honestly and surprisingly (for those who know me well, maybe it's not. ahaha), i rarely can/will think rasional when i hv emosional problem. Yeaaaa i know it's baddddd !
I just can't help it. Paling bagus, akan mengambil masa satu jam hingga dua jam utk kembali normal dan kembali rasional utk memikirkan penyelesaian masalah. Paling teruk, mengambil masa sebulan utk kembali ok dan hmm, agak terlambat utk menyelesaikan masalah. Teruk kan?

I'm trying my very best to improve. And i think, i am improving. ngee. :P Sometimes i need to seat alone, hear my playlist, menconteng2, menulis poem (kononnye) utk kembali rilex. Aizam kate, poyo je aku ni. lol. But well, that's me. We need to find a way to put away our stress. Cewah. Hehe.

Antara contengan-contengan membina diri sendiri. ahaha. aih lame nye sy. -_-'

love.

L I F E is wonderful .

2009-03-22T23:22:00.004+08:00

I'm cleaning up some space in my HD and i found this :

That was during June 2008.
Rindunyee !! Sy mau ke Redang lg ! I mean i wanna go right now (na na na na) !
*Nyanyi lagu Akon while browsing. :P

love.

If Being Vain is A Sin .

2009-03-17T20:10:00.012+08:00

Hbs la kau syafiq. haha. :P
Nah, this entry specially tribute to Mr Syafiq the supermodel wannabe.
jangan marah ok ! ha tu la sape suruh gune camera aku utk ber-vain. ;P

Enjoy ! ^-^

1st vain attempt :

2nd vain attempt :

3rd vain attempt :

4th vain attempt :

5th vain attempt :

Aww. This one mungkin bole dihantar ke model agency. what do u thnk? ngehehe. :P

love.

Word of Wisdom .

2009-03-16T13:53:00.005+08:00

I bet everybody have their own word of wisdom to hold to lift their spirit when they're down. So do i. If u do not hv one, thnk again, u might not hv good self motivation in urself. For me, self motivation gv me great guts to continue doing something in life without another's prodding. Self motivation gv us the power to move forward, and to success in whatever we do.

Today, i'd like to share with all, the words that i hold whenever i feel down, and when i nearly gving up on something. I never forget to bring up together my lovely diary whenever i go.

Anything you wish for,
everythng you dream of,
you will achieve,
as long as you believe cos nothing's impossible,
So just believe and holding on.
.....

Destiny is not a matter of chance,
It's a matter of choice.
It's not a thing to be waited for,
It's a thing to be achieved.

Last week, i bought a book called The Yoga Of Wealth. The book is about way to create unlimiting wealth, the spiritual keys to creating it. Interesting kan? Yes, rich isn't promise us a succesful life. But wealth it is. It's very subjective. Here some of my favourite words in that book.

If you can control your thoughts,
you can change the way you perceive, which will change the way you act.
Over a long period of time, it will change your habits and behaviour,
which ends up changes your character, your life and your DESTINY.

So change the way we think, and you will change your destiny. :)

love.

Dan Semalam .

2009-03-12T07:46:00.005+08:00

I am part of the mistakes that i've done in the past. Gone through the darkest road, holding back and pretend everythng's ok. I was part of your favourite mistakes, and part of your dirty talk. Make fun of me, but trust me you won't get anythng. Time grow me old. Time taught me all.

Today i wake up with full of hatred blood. Full with negative thought.

Hanya satu dlm akalku,

Biar semalam ghaib dpd pemikiran.
Biarlah engkau hilang dpd pandangan.
Biar waktu mengubah segalanya.
Biarkan mereka tertanya-tanya.
Kerna aku sudah patah hatinya.
Sudah lumpuh jiwanya.
Kerna aku bkn hambaNya yg sempurna.
Dan hanya satu yang ku pinta,

Ampunkan hamba Mu yang hina ini.

Zawani Zakaria

I could not ask for more .. dan semalam meninggalkan satu titik noktah utk engkau. Utk selamanya.

love.

Splashh-ed !

2009-03-08T08:59:00.004+08:00

Yesterday on 7th, me and friends went to Sg Lentang, Pahang again ! This time i had extra joy sbb sy dpt bermain air dgn seronoknya ! lol. Well, the wheather was good, with fun ppl, i could not hv a reason to not enjoy the moment. Here's some pictures taken during the mandi-manda. Mostly not taken by me sbb sy pn nak ber-vain jgk. :P

the cute-est picture. haha. sume nk buat muka comell je. :P

Aizam, the next the Rock? (the red shirt) :P

Aizam, u just get caught ! u can't hide anythng cos my camera can capture everythng. haha. Tk perasan sape yg capture this picture. But look at Aizam's face. What thee..? :P

He didn't realize someone is stalking on him. :P

So, hv a nice weekend everyone ! Peace frm me. and yes, no WAR ! :)

love.

The Day I Cried .

2009-03-02T08:34:00.005+08:00

On the day i had my pride.
Yet, the real journey is just begin.
On 28th Feb, i'm glad that i've completed my task to be a 'C' post. Alhamdulillah, after 3 months struggling, fighting the emotion, and turndowns from some ppl, i'm proud that i am now one step forward to a new chapter. I gotta say it's not that easy to achieve it, but as long as you just do it without knowing the give up words, someday and one day you will achieve what you wanted. My secret is just one, keep believing it.

Positive vibration is another key. When i was still new dlm bln 11 last yr, Abg Nas hv told me about the positive vibration. He said to us, to keep moving, we must hv the positive vibrations in ourselves. That vibration will help us to overcome any obstacle that inteferes us. I thought it's just a joke. Positive vibration, what? I can't feel any. hehe. But after reading a book at MPH last January, called The Law Of Attraction, i've started to attract that vibration, and keep my believe that yes, i can do, i can achieve it. It helps me to move forward, and to keep me doing it without gving up. Thanks to all that supported me, especially to Kak Ainor, Aizam, Abg Nas, Hafiq and others.

My special thanks to my family, especially to my mom and my siblings. You guys gv me strength to keep moving. To mama, K.long takkan kecewakan mama. Terima kasih kerana percayakan K.long. Terima kasih kerana berdiri disebelah K.long. I will never gv up.

Terima Kasih utk semua.

love.

Lu pikir la sendiri !

2009-02-21T11:44:00.001+08:00

I've been tagged by Am Sarawak.
(p/s: sorry le am lmbt buat. been bz lately. so here we go, i did it today.)

Sila berikan kegunaan lain yang digunakan oleh anda kepada barang-barang yang dinyatakan di bawah...(maksudnya bukan kegunaan sebenar barang tu tapi kegunaan tambahan yang anda buat la dengan barang tu, kira diaplikasikan oleh anda... konon kreatif la tu!)

1) Anak Kunci
kegunaan asal - untuk kunci pintu, laci dan apa2 yg berkunci
kegunaan sampingan difikir - sbg senjata. diletakkan dicelah jari utk menumbuk.

2) Penutup Pen
kegunaan asal - tutup pen, x nak kasi dakwat kering
kegunaan sampingan difikir - pengganti cotton bud. dgn tk senonohnye, pengorek telinga. wtf?

3) Botol Mineral
kegunaan asal - tempat simpan air
kegunaan sampingan difikir - potong tgh2, hiaskan utk jd tmpat simpan pen and pensel.

4) Paper lama
kegunaan asal - boleh digunakan utk buat draft paper
kegunaan sampingan difikir - gunting kecik2, sbg material utk buat birthday card or any cards. (ye sy selalu buat.)

5) Seluar 'D' lama
kegunaan asal - pakai kat dalam bukan di luar
kegunaan sampingan difikir - ok, i can't thnk any of it. so buang je dlm tong smpah, dan recycle. dpt rm5 at least kot? haha. (like ewww?)

6) Lesung batu
kegunaan asal - menumbuk belacan, dsb
kegunaan sampingan difikir - menumbuk org?

7) Langsir
kegunaan asal - perhiasan umah/keceriaan umah
kegunaan sampingan difikir - sbg cadar katil. (last option bile sume cadar hbs dibasuh)

8) Komputer office
kegunaan asal - membuat keja rasmi
kegunaan sampingan difikir - membuat kerja tk rasmi, spt chatting ngan YB, bermyspace dgn menteri, dan check flickr.

9) Duit syiling
kegunaan asal - nak lengkapkan duit kertas
kegunaan sampingan difikir - sbg pengganti jangka lukis, bila nk lukis bulat.

10) Laman Blog
kegunaan asal - menulis dan mencari sahabat lama dan baru. tukar2 pendapat
kegunaan sampingan difikir - sbg tempat melepaskan marah, mengumpat, bergossip, menambahkan dosa dan sebagainya. (lu pikirr la sendiri ! :P )

*************************************************

Huh, cuak nye ! Another 4 days remain. I pray to god, everythng gonna be as what i plan.
Bismillahi tawakkal 'alAllah.

love.

Watch Out !

2009-02-18T17:29:00.001+08:00

From now on, i will :

Monitor and jot down what i eat everyday. (Lately, i've been neglecting my meal so much and took too much of junk food in between, haihh)
Do physical activities 3 times a week for 60 minutes. (For 4 months, i stop yoga and become lazier to do physical activities, and it makes my body stiffed. -_-'' )
Lower down my caffein intake. (From 3 cups to 1 cup a day)
Try to not skip my class. (yea i know i know, i shouldn't. When i'd lack of sleep, with my tiring body, i become lazy)

I hope i could slowly change my routine to lead a better way of life. Woohoo !

love.

The Love of Being Green.

2009-02-17T12:59:00.000+08:00

On last Sunday, 15th Februari, me and Ahmad joined my society for a day trip to Hutan Lipur Sg. Lentang, Pahang. I was overjoyed since dh lama sgt2 tk pegi ke air terjun. Hutan Lipur Sg. Lentang is just 45 minutes from kl and it was really a relaxing place. Promised you with great scenery.

While everyone excited utk mandi sg, me and Ahmad pegi explore around for our photoshooting. Igt nk mandi sungai ptg-ptg sket, last-last tk mandi langsung pn, agak rugi but tk pe, next time boleh pegi utk bermandi-manda shj. hehe. Anyway, it was pleasure to hv Ahmad for this time photoshooting and i learnt a lot of techniques and skills frm him. So to Ahmad, tlg jgn mengaku kamu noob ok. :P Here's some of the snapshots taken during dat day.

The director.

Us !

More pictures at : www.flickr.com/photos/blissfulaniz

love.

Woot woot !

2009-02-12T12:56:00.003+08:00

Yeay, finally i'm able to access internet as usual. Seminggu rasa mcm berada di bawah tempurung kelapa yg sempit dan gelap. So many thngs to update, so many thngs to plan out. dan paling penting, i just can't wait for April to comee ! Sekali lagi my lovely trio group, me, Bee and K.ina akan memulakan pengembaraan kami. Eceh, pengembaraan la sgt. We gonna tour another island !

Alhamdulillah, i'm glad everythng become better. Things become easier right now when i manage to slowly adapt with my new atmosphere. It's not easy, but it's not hard either. It's just simple, it will come when u believe. and i believe and holding on. :)

So, wait for another updates ! have a nice day everyone !

love.

Wanna be Hot?

2009-02-04T17:17:00.001+08:00

Just show some anger .

hot kan? *yeah, ignore me for seconds again for this.* :P

love.

The day i thought i wanna stop fighting.

2009-01-29T12:00:00.004+08:00

But i realize it's such a waste to stop right here, right now when i've been through half of the tough journey. I'd be the stupid-est person in the world if i stop now. I swear for myself and my parents' sake, i won't stop.

I know Tuhan lebih mengetahui apa disebalik kesusahan yg aku alami sekarang. I sat alone in the bus ystrday, and reminiscing my past. Somehow i realize that past experience had made me like this. Yes, to be a tougher person, a different person i never thought i would be. Tuhan beri kesusahan, bukan semestinya Dia tk sayangkan ciptaan-Nya. Aku percaya satu hari nanti kesusahan yg ku alami sekarang akan berakhir dan kegembiraan itu akan dtg. Kesusahan dan ujian itu juga yg membuatkan aku lebih kuat. I believe everythng happen in life for reasons. I just need to be strong.

For myself and for those who nearly gving up, here a song for u.

Jangan Berhenti - Ruffedge

Sememangnya kita sering dilanda dengan pertanyaan
Bagaimana untuk maju ke hadapan
Jika kita asyik duduk dalam kegelapan

Sememangnya akan ada yang iri hati dengan kita
Cuba menjatuhkan oh dengan harapan
Agar kita tidak kan bertemu kejayaan

Pernah dulu ku rasakan hampir hilang semua
Bersaing dengan gelap kegagalan
Kecewa dan sedih jadi teman
Ku pasti inilah lumrah di dalam kehidupan
Menangis sebelum kita ke depan Tapi kini...

Chorus
Ku rasakan bagaikan sinar yang terang
Dari langit yang dipancarkan ke bumi
Jauh daripada rasa sepi
Perasaan, inginku berpijak lebih tinggi
Dan meneruskan perjuangan ini
Janganlah kita berhenti di sini

Sebenarnya diri kita mempunyai cita-cita,
Jika putus asa maka takkan rasa
Bagaimana terangnya hidup bila berjaya

Kalau kita asyik terus mendengar kata yang tak tulus
Harus kita ambil semua serius jika tidak
Masa depan kita kan terhapus

Pernah dulu ku rasakan hampir hilang semua
Bersaing dengan gelap kegagalan
Kecewa dan sedih jadi teman
Ku pasti inilah lumrah di dalam kehidupan
Menangis sebelum kita ke depan
Tapi kini...Masih ada ruang kita bergerak bebas
Mencari-cari apa yang telah hilang
Oh kita ada bersama hingga kini
Tetap sabar, terima kasih semua....

still, i believe.

love.

So What?

2009-01-27T12:14:00.009+08:00

During Mq Nas Birthday Celebration, Hot in Hat Party.

Mq Ainor with her beloved Rx8.

Me with Mq Nas.

love.

Oh Wow Panjangnya !

2009-01-21T12:25:00.004+08:00

How did you feel when u know someone has his/her eyes on u? or perhaps, spying on u? Mesti terasa bangga kan? Yelah, igt artis je ke ada gossip2 liar? Org biasa pn sure tk terlepas punya, kan? Kenapa berlakunya situation dengki-mendengki, benci-membenci dan terus akan ada adegan mengumpat dan bergossip? Kenapa ye?

Sometimes when i think about it, it's kinda funny. For me, mungkin mereka kurang diberi perhatian. Atau mungkin itu lifestyle mereka, just for fun, utk mencari dosa lebih? Or maybe, they're envious? Maybe it's not their fault when they're selfless. Sounds pathetic aren't they? Whatever the reason is, i don't bother what's on your mind. I mean, at all.

When i first received a comment from the anonymous regarding my entry in my blog, i was shocked and mad. Perasaan bercampur, smpai rasa nk menangis. heh.

Anonymous has left a new comment on your post "Summary of May .":

true n true ur stupid. do you know what love means anyway ? u always let ur self cheated for like zillionss of guys..do they cheat ? or u syok sendiri jer? u should be smart enough to think n love your self. not give everything. everyone knows u slept with many guys.. obviously kan.. thats why i said.. u give everything.. without thinking.

Wow, like a god? Act like they know everything inside out of me. Hebat kan die ni? Sbb tu i was shocked masa first time baca. Bkn la bermaksud nk tunjuk who really i am, teruk ke bagus ke.. Tak. Actly bnyk lg i received frm the anonymous. Tk payah la paste kat sini kan. Tapi tkpe, mungkin she/he try to leave a good msg there. Tapi tk perlu la anonymous, cos if you want to talk sthng good and u sure u're right, u dont hv to be afraid to show who you really are. But the question is, are u?

I've learnt that bila org memberi nasihat, take what he/she said, without looking at siapa yg memberi teguran tu. Because if u really wanna be a someone, u need to listen more. So i did. For ages, i try to build my self-confidence, self-control and acceptance to others. It's not easy to change, but in life, we need to. Resistance, is normal. Like i told earlier, jgn kan artis, org biasa like me, tk terlepas dpd pandangan org lain, tk terlepas dpd menjadi bhn cemuhan, dibenci org, sume ada. Ah so sy ni one step ahead to be as popular as artist la kan? ngeh.

To the 'anonymous', 'ygmembencikau' and all haters out there, let me tell u sthng. Tk pernah terfikir kenapa Palestin hancur? Kenapa org melayu zaman sekarang susah nak maju? Ppl nowadays sibuk memboikot brg2 la, mencari kesalahan org ni la, benda tula. Tapi, masalah tk juga selesai. Why? There's no humanity. What? Humanity? Penting sgt ke? Well, for me, if there's no humanity in you, if you're not a big hearted person, perhaps, u are one of the ppl yg mungkin tak akan berjaya dlm hidup walaupun ada degree dpt 4 flats. I learn now that in life, we need to pay it forward, not to pay it back. When u help someone, dont expect them to pay it back, but take it as we pay it forward. :)

So, u can say anythng u want because words can't bring me down at all. Mungkin kamu tk punya big heart and strong humanity value to understand why manusia tk perlu membenci dan bertelagah sesama sendiri. Kerana itu punca manusia tk berjaya dlm kehidupan mereka. I hv my own reasons why i do this and that, which i don't need to tell the world to make them understand. Enough that i know that i did it all for myself, and my family. and enough that i know i don't take others money, i don't depends on anybody to survive in this life. and enough that i know eventhough i hv to lent others money to start sthng to change my life and not for own use, i know i will pay it back. Sy tk malu. I know what i'm doing. I do what i can. But how about u? What's the best thing u achieve in ur life? U know better.

Oh wow, mcm panjang plk entry kali ni. Sesi meluahkan perasaan ke? heh. Tk la sgt. Cuma tergerak hati nk tulis je. Well, it's all about how u take it. :) Wallahua'lam.

Have a good day alrite?

love.

Oh You Got Me Hypnotized.

2009-01-18T21:38:00.001+08:00

Just another crush. :P hehe. enjoy.

Azan Ruffedge.

MQ Nasreeq.

The crowd.

Me & Da'am

Us with Celebrated MQ Ainor.

love.

Dream Big .

2009-01-18T18:00:00.006+08:00

Listen
To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't listen

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on my mind
You should have known -

Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start
But I will complete -

Listen - Beyonce

love.

So long, Goodnight .

2009-01-11T23:34:00.004+08:00

love.

A Day at Botanical Garden .

2009-01-11T22:07:00.001+08:00

Ystrday, me and SYN colleagues went to Botanical Garden, Putrjaya for the team bonding. The exciting event started as early as 8.30 am until 5.00 pm. Lots of activites we done such as cycling along the lake, sandwich-making challenge, and doing blueprint. Bicycle can be rented, rm5/hour. Best kan? Punyela lama tk naik basikal, ha amik kau, berbasikal selama 1 jam. Tk sampai 30 min dh terasa lenguh2 peha dh. hehe. But overall, it was exciting and we had so much fun all the day long.

Before cycling.

Us !

When everybody's ready, 1 and 2... Meet Shahir the spoiler. haha.

Sandwich Making Challenge.

Hello Sand-witch !

Sedang concentrate. :P

Aizam dgn tarian poco-poco nye. haha. :P

D'Most Extravaganza Sand-Witch group.

Aktiviti sampingan itu penting. :P

Have a nice day everyone !

love.

Minat Tex-Mex food?

2009-01-07T09:51:00.004+08:00

Have you heard about Fajitas before? Fajitas is one of the Tex-mex cuisine. Mostly influenced by Mexican foods. What i love about fajitas is, it's really a simple dish, easy to cook, dan mmg mengenyangkan. Fajitas usually served with flour or corn tortilla with grilled meat, vege or eggs inside. Ha, hari ni, i'm gonna share one of my favourite 'masakan-paling-malas-tapi-sedap'. hehe.

Egg Fajitas.

2 Egg
Button mushroom
black pepper course
2 slices of cheddar cheese
salad
2 slices of flour tortilla
mayonaise

Cara Memasak :
1. Pukul telur dan masukkan button mushroom yg dh dipotong, dan a pinch of black pepper course.

2. Heat the pan, and goreng telur until kekuningan.

3. Tortilla bole dipanaskan selama 30 secs in the microwave or atas pan yg bersih.

4. Place the egg in the tortilla, together with cheese and salad.

5. You can serve with sour cream or mayonaise, whatever you like. :P

Happy trying ! Good day everyone !

love.

A good start for 2009 !

2009-01-02T22:06:00.001+08:00

Oh first of all, Happy New Year ! Yess, i hv a very good start for 2009. Why? I had a very bad flu since 31st Dec 2008, and it drag until today. I hate ! and today is the worst. My whole body ached, and fever. Great isn't it? Well actually, it was my fault. On 1st Jan 2009, my SYN colleague, Hafiq asked me to join them playing sport at Cyberjaya Community Center. I thought it was a good start for 2009. I was quite excited since dah lama berehat dpd bermain bdmnton. (ceh, mcm pemain berjaya je !). I had flu that time, yet still very energetic (faham-faham jela..) to join them. Since everyone planned to play futsal, i asked my friend Yana (used to be my partner for bdmnton double or in malay called, beregu game) to join me.

So we met at MMU library at 4pm and walked to the Community Center. We started to play at 5pm until 6pm. Surprisingly, selsema mcm tiba-tiba hilang masa bermain. But then after 15 minutes, tk tahula kenapa, i felt so dizzy and my eyes mcm steamm je. I started to felt the body aching. Damn, ni mesti sbb dh lama tk work out. huhu. Tu salah satu reason nye. Second thing, i didn't do proper warm-up before playing. And third was, i realize actually, i was forcing my body very hard during the game while my body is weak. Selain dpd itu, since i stop yoga stretching 3 months ago, i can feel the differences in my body strength especially on my stomach muscle. uhu. Whenever i did skipping or any sports je, sakit-sakit badan. Haihh. I know why, there's no continuous exercise in my routine. :(

So, another resolution for 2009. I need to change (the same one as 2008. huhu). Start my work out every morning and eat hearty breakfast. Simple. But need a strong courage to have it continuously. Ok, i need to stop writing now. My body ached dh makin menjadi-jadi plk rasanya.

My last words: keep ur words, and make it happen. There's no easy way to change, but the sweetest thng will only come for those who never gving up.

love.

Quotes of the Day .

2008-12-27T21:10:00.004+08:00

"If you can success in overnight, the world would be unfair."

"Every drops of your tears, is a beginning of your laughter."

Steven

love.

Hye 2009, goodbye 2008 .

2008-12-25T23:26:00.005+08:00

2009 is getting closer. Just another 241 hrs to go to complete my mission that i commit early month ago. Ah cuaknya ! But i believe that i can complete it by Jan 2009. Impossible is Nothing (pinjam tagline Adidas sbg perangsang. hehe.) I realize that sekarang ni aku suka berckp bersendirian. Either to motivate or to calm myself. weirdo. Td lps mkn, i stood in front of my aquarium and said, "ikan, kau pn tlg doakan utk aku skali ye. Kalau aku berjaya, aku akan beli aquarium lg besar utk kau." Ntahlah knapa aku ckp mcm tu. Tapi aku percaya doa ikan utk aku pn bole dimakbulkan. I'll do my best.

Anyway, as 2009 pn dah dekat, i did some wishlist and azam baru to give me more energy to work on a new book.

Buy new formal suit. I need one.
Qualify myself to IME Macau.
Bring mama & ayah umrah. (April/May 2009)
To be cmq by April 2009.
Travel to Boracay Island. (May 2009)
Visit NZ, Angah's Graduation Day. (Dec 2009)

Have lots more to list. But those above are some of the highlights. I wish 2009 will lead me to better living and bring me more happiness to me and my family. Oh not to forget, sy harap sy dpt special BF pd June 2009. LOL. Aminnn ~ (hee. :P)

love.

A Walk To Remember .

2008-12-18T14:53:00.001+08:00

Today i realize that life can be STRANGE .
They have good and bad in so many ways.

Today i know life is BEAUTIFUL .
I'm glad that at least i could playback the memories with someone i miss for long time.

And today i will say life is UNCONDITIONAL .
i know that life is kind and they gv you chance to rewrite your journey tape as long as you believe.

Sometimes i thought life is cruel and unfair. Aways murmured why ppl's like this and that. I was arrogant. So arrogant until i nearly lost a friend who was beside me all the time. But well, everythng happen for reasons. Like i said, life is love which unconditional. They gv you sthng without any limits. Whether good or bad, there's always reasons behind that.

Today, i'm glad that my friendship between me and Syaz is back to normal. :) Yes, after 2 tahun kami senyap membawa diri masing-masing. I realize after what we had before is just a short pause for me to learn my mistakes. We actually complement each other. It's just me yang extra ego. hehe. After all, i wouldn't let myself losing my precious thing again.

love.

Undiscovered .

2008-12-16T18:56:00.002+08:00

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
But I can't find the words you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for me

And I
I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

You Make It Real - James Marrison

love.

In Love !

2008-12-08T05:52:00.006+08:00

with Robert Pattinson a.k.a Edward Cullen in Twilight (2008) .

He is absolutely admirable. hot. sexy. haha. I i know it's lame. But look at his eyes, just say it all.

*eheh, cakap macam kenal dan pernah berjumpa je. haha ignore me for seconds for this !* :P

love.

Annual Dinner 2008 .

2008-12-07T22:38:00.005+08:00

On 6th December, me and my family had a splendid annual dinner at Gen Restaurant, The Legend Hotel as usual. Great foods, happy moments, large spaces, and lots of gifts ~ Oh the greatest thing was this time, we had a room for 8 pax. It's really a huge room, with nice view. We had Japanese Buffet and for me it's worth for money eating here instead of eating at Sushi King. It's only available on Thursday until Sunday and it's for Rm69.00 per pax. Seriously for japanese food lover, you should try this as the food range is really good. From various sushi, sashimi to soba, tempura, and desserts. Oh you name it ! Sume adaa. :P

I've been waiting for so long. hehe. For this year, i received Issey Miyake perfume and Sembonia high heels from mama and ayah, A set of perfume from Elizabeth Arden from K.ngah, a Puma bagpack from K.lang, and a pair of flat shoes from adik. Thanks guys. It was really a special night.

from our room.

love.

The 'What If' .

2008-12-01T13:01:00.005+08:00

What If,
You fall, do you know who gonna help you out? and how far they could help you?

What If,
There' nobody to help you out, do you think you can survive alone?

What If,
You think you can survive but actually you dont? Because you never really brave enough to take the risk?

What If,
You knw the risk that you might take could lightened you up, are you ready to take the step which out of your comfort zone?

What If,
There're so much objections?

What If,
You have take the risk, and you've prepare for everything, but the things you think's gonna work out turn up side down? How you gonna handle it?

What If,
You give up?

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Hmm, i've think a lot of that 'what if' questions lately. Every problem have the solution. All i have to do is how to turn the words to actions. It's hard, but it's not impossible. I know. I inspired by this quote from Pay It Forward (2000) movie that i watched last night with my team mate. Really give a big impact.

"Some people are too scared or something to think things can be different. The world’s not exactly…shit. I guess it’s hard for some people who are so use to things the way they are-even if they’re bad- to change and they kinda give up and when they do, everybody loses"

love.

My Saving Grace .

2008-11-25T13:27:00.005+08:00

My confidence level started to hit the low level again. :(
God. Give me strength to fight it.
I really need it. Really want it. I know i can achieve it.
But i need the strength to move on and on and on without any hesitation.

Ya Tuhan, permudahkan segala kerjaku dan bukakan pintu hatiku..

love.

The day when i thought life's easy, but it's not.

2008-11-20T13:44:00.004+08:00

and makes me realize that, never predict life.

Been bz for the past few week. Last week, i get MC for 3 days due to heavy fever and swollen tonsil. For the whole 1 week i was absent from classes, and there's a lot of things i need to catch up. Math, one topic; Electromagnetic subject, one topic. A LOT, i mean. sheeshh. Next week, i need to really ready for the next work task. to close 1 source, and 1 friend. feww. Am i really ready to commit? and to accept the reaction from others? i hope so.

Last week's task was the beginning. At first, it was really hard as i never did that before in my life. I was struggling to complete it. And glad that i'm able to complete it in 4 days. As that was the first time doing it, i start with a prediction and assuming. I almost gave up as i didn't receive any good achievement in day 1. I met my leader and ask for the consultation. She told me just do it without any prediction and assuming. Never judge things, before you ever start it. So i tried again. and i can't believe that i'm able to complete it within the next 3 days. End of the day, it really taught me about reality of life and people around me. And with this task, i know now what to take, what to avoid, how to prepare, and why never predict life and people. Yes, never predict.

To live life, is to do something you never do before in your life. Then, you will able to see the real world. That's the biggest thing i learned.

love.

Jika Mungkin .

2008-11-13T14:50:00.005+08:00

Awan, something is bothering me now. Aku mcm tk percaya apa yg k.ngah cakap tadi. He only have a certain period of time to live? Are you joking? No no. It can't be ...... terdiam.

Awan, betul ke? Ya Tuhan, tapi kenapa begitu cepat? Aku masih belum berjaya. Aku masih belum sempat memberikan dia kegembiraan, membalas segala jasanya. Kenapa begitu cepat...? Aku masih belum bersedia ...

Ya Tuhan, jika betul apa yg diberitahu oleh manusia itu. Aku masih tidak percaya. Ya, tidak. Aku percaya hidup dan mati itu, di tangan Kau, satu-satu nya Penguasa Alam. Berikanlah sedikit lagi masa, untuk aku membalas segala jasanya. Berikanlah aku sedikit lagi masa untuk aku menyayangi dia. Tuhan, aku merayu. Aku masih memerlukan dia. Jika mungkin, selama aku hidup. Jika mungkin, biarlah aku pergi sebelum dia. Tuhan, Kau lebih mengetahui segala-galanya. Berikanlah sedikit masa lagi.

......

love.

Sunshine !

2008-11-11T12:55:00.005+08:00

and they ARE !

They're always there, when i'm in sorrow.

They're there, when i'm happy.

We share the laughter.

We share the joy.

and I heart 'em all.

love.

Warkah Hati .

2008-11-08T22:58:00.006+08:00

Jika hati menjadi medan peperangan,
Maka ranaplah jiwa dan raga
Jika aku bandingkan cinta engkau dan Dia,
Terbukti jauh langit dan bumi bezanya.

Aku bersendirian berbicara sama awan sekali lagi,
Teman yang paling setia ciptaan Dia
Sambil memujuk hati untuk senyum kembali,
Oh awan, yakinkan aku bahawa ini hanya dugaan, bukan selamanya.

Walau setiap degup jantungku, kau sesakkan,
Aku tetap menunggu, setia menanti kepulanganmu
Namun setiap saat, setiap janji yang kau lafazkan,
Kau biarkan ianya hangus hingga menjadi debu.

Oh awan, aku sudah penat menangis
Jiwa habis punah dipijak,
Apakah hati ini akan selamanya dihiris
Atau perasaan ini akan selamanya disinis?

Kini, aku lebih merasakan cinta Dia adalah cinta abadi.
Bukan seperti kau yang hanya ada nafsu di hati.
Separuh jalanku dibiarkan mati dipintu neraka.
Separuh lagi akan aku serahkan pada yang Maha Esa.

Oh awan, bisakah kau mencari pengganti untuk menemani hatiku?
I'm no angel.

Zawani Zakaria

love.

Picture of Life .

2008-11-04T16:01:00.011+08:00

More than just Life.

Pernah beberapa kali aku menggesa dia utk berhenti membuat Graffiti dan hanya tumpukan kepada photography. Namun dia enggan. Well, i couldn't say anything. But after awhile, he himself announced openly that he gonna stop writing Graffiti. I was curious but at the same time, i'm kinda happy. Masa berlalu, tapi sehingga hari ini, he's still active being a writer of Graffiti. No matter how people critics about the Graffiti arts, he continue it as a passion. Now i see Graffiti for him is just more than life. Not just for fun, but he write for soul. Later i found this quote,

Painting is just another way of keeping a diary.
Pablo Picasso

And now, i understand. :)

love.

heart Graffiti .

2008-11-02T23:29:00.021+08:00

The making of . .
the Meeting of Character Nov 2008.

Mile09

A80's
Mile09
They

Special thanks to,

Fik & Ayie
Mal (Mile09)

Oh this one, taken by Fik. Terima kasih utk foto ini ya !

I had a really great day. Watching them writing on the wall, color the characters and make it till it's satisfy them. It's fun ! Some of the writers who was there are, http://www.artthey.com/ (They), http://mile09.blogspot.com/ (Mile09), A80's, writer frm Swiss, New Zealand and many more. Macam terpegun pun ada. hehe. Well, i hope to see they doing their "bombing" again next time. Thanks yaw ! :P

More pictures at : www.flickr.com/photos/blissfulaniz

love.

Yoga, my way of self-improvement.

2008-10-31T09:12:00.007+08:00

National Fatwa Council to make a ruling on yoga - The Star Online

Personally, i'm totally disagree with it. Yoga is not a religion ! Yoga bukan satu kepercayaan smpai boleh memesongkan akidah seseorang. It's a complete form of exercise. The most important benefit of Yoga is, physical and mental therapy. It's not just keep our body flexible, detoxifies and rilex, it's really improve one's breathing system.

I've been practising it about 2 yrs, and the outcomes is obvious. I had asthma, and after all, i can see the difference in my breathing and improving my asthma time by time. Betul tk tipu ! My friends dulu ramai tertanya, Yoga ni betul2 beneficial ke? Tengok movement mcm sume slow motion je. Aha, walaupun kebanyakan movement in yoga pose agak slow, but when it combine with the correct breathing technique, you will see the obvious result. With regular practise of asanas (body position), pranayama (breathing technique), it will improve your flexibility, massage your inner organ, joints and ligaments, tone your muscles, improve respirations problems and lots more. You can read other the benefits of yoga here. (click !)

Yoga diharamkan hanya kerana ia dikatakan bole memesongkan agama. Sgt tk masuk akal. It's just a complete form of exercise and meditation. Jauh sekali dengan kepercayaan mahupun agama.

I have read this one artical in Yoga Life magazine (June-July 2008), it's written,

"Yoga has also been accused of being a “launching point” to export Hinduism. This is very interesting, considering the large numbers of Yoga practitioners who are not Hindus. For fundamentalist Hindus that believe Yoga and Hinduism cannot be separate, sorry to break the news, but it has already happened. Yoga was interpreted in many ways by a variety of cultures and partial facets of Yoga have grown independently. Some Hatha Yoga styles do not even practice meditation.

Yoga students outside India, pick and choose what they want to learn from Yoga. At this time, physical mastery seems to be most popular. This is why Yoga teachers outside India focus primarily on physical health. Many western students think only of Hatha Yoga, when they hear the word “Yoga.”

This is why Yoga cannot really be controlled, regulated, or patented. How do you control people’s thoughts, actions, physical practice, prayers, meditation, or songs? The whole concept of controlling Yoga is ludicrous.

The real problem with Yoga, for the fundamentalist of any religion, is that it can be practiced by anyone from any religion. Yoga is not exclusive: The laws are universal and interchangeable with every religion. This allows a Yoga practitioner to work independently on his or her spiritual health and work toward enlightenment.

What is wrong with working toward the common good? The idea of working toward enlightenment and self-perfection are considered blasphemy to some. However, can you imagine a world where men and women did not try to improve themselves?

The objectives of Yoga are complete heath, self-improvement, self realization, and tranquility. With these benefits acquired any Yoga practitioner can help others and work for the common good."

Kesimpulannya ?

You see, even the Christians said, it's not a religion. Ya, sy tak samakan Islam dgn Christian. Tapi Islam sendiri tk mengharamkan sesuatu yg bagus dan beneficial utk umatnya. Solat dan Yoga, mmg sgt berlainan dari segi niat. Tapi in term of body position, sy tk dpt nafikan, sebenarnya, mmg lebih kurang sama. You can read the artical about it here. Theyogainstructordiaries. Sy sebagai Muslim ada kewajipan yg mmg sy tunaikan spt solat and so on. Yoga doesn't memesongkan my akidah at all. Practising yoga is just to improve my health and self-awareness. So does with other Yoga practitioners. So what's wrong with the Majlis Fatwa Kebangsaan tiba-tiba nak mengharamkan Yoga? Saya harap mereka dpt membuat kajian lebih terperinci sebelum membuat apa-apa fatwa. Aih..

love.

You wanna Know? So i tell you.

2008-10-30T11:19:00.014+08:00

For the moment of truth.

I am doing okay. Yeah, at least.

I am, yes, still missing someone that burned me up some times ago. Sayang? Mungkin. . Aku bodoh? Biarkan.

I am trying to get rid of everybody. Not because i'm stress. I need my some times alone.

I am depressed. Because of ~~past relationship~~ people around me. Dunia menjadi pentas lakonan semata. Aku? Kau? Kita semua. Tak mengira sesiapa, walau sedara mara kita atau darah daging kita sendiri.

I am lying to you. Yes you. Bukan aku sengaja. Tapi untuk menjaga hati kau jugak. Being too honest? Not anymore. Untuk apa? Jika diri sendiri yang akan makan hati balik.

I am abused. I mean, i was ~~sex~~ emotional abused. My friends asked, "kenapa kau tk nak cari BF skrang?" Answer? BF bukan untuk dicari and i need to build a balanced life for now.

I am okay, . Yeah, again. I am okay. I'm steady. Talk about patience, for yrs, i've been patient enough. Been hurt enough. But here i am, still standing on my own feet. I'm blessed.

So, now you know how it feels to be me? It's good, you know.. I'm emotional, yes i am. And i believe, common sense is a gift from The Above, The Greatest. Whatever i do, back to one thing, my common sense. Shall i, or shall i not. And yes, my practical judgment may not same as you. That's the differences. Ppl's envy, hating, critics. You're most welcome. Because we have feeling, emotion that you couldn't resist. We're just human.

"Sekarang ini, musuh kau hanyalah minda sendiri." - Zahiril Adzim.

listening to : Im the lucky One - Anuar Zain

love.

We're in yoga cover magazine !

2008-10-28T10:49:00.004+08:00

perasan ! :P

love.

. the Pieces of Me .

When can i see you again ?

Solemnization of K.ina & Samier .

The Basic .

F uc K !

I'm Just A Singer .

Fallin' .

It's Raining .

Whenever You Call .

The Special 5 Words .

Empty Space .

a Heart note .

a Stupid notes .

Running, running .

A little bit Unwell .

Dengan Tulus Ikhlas ..

Series of Baby Fatin .

I'll Be .

I'm With You .

What's on my mind?

The Day I Have Gotta Live My Dreams .

Enough is just not Enough .

Hid's Graduation Day !

Taman Negara Selai-Endau Rompin .

The day that ONE day can change everything .

Anda Pilih Bahagia atau Sengsara?

Human & Nature .

Bon Odori 2009 .

12 AM .

When a Girl Loves a Guy .

A day with Crazy-Fun Couple .

used DSLR for sale ! *sold*

Letter of a Heart .

Be Me . Be You .

Tribute to Mikaeel (MJ) .

The Melody I Wish .

Detik Demi Detik .

Oh-so-simple .

Still got the Blues .

Post Wedding : Nuar & Fadiah

Wedding Reception : Nuar & Fadiah

Bijak Vs. Pandai ?

Heart Sick .

One Fine Day .

Tick Tock Tick Tock .

Engagement : Hazly & Lin

Wedding Reception : Hazly & Lin

wOot woOt !

Random-nessss .

The Day When He's Just Not That Into You .

8 AM .

Life's like playing card? No?

I Remember .

the Fighter .

No doubt .

If Everyone Cared .

Love is Rainbow .

A Little Bit of Something .

The Day I'm Gonna Be A Shining Star, Fancy Clothes and Fancy Car.

NOTED !

Melawan Kesepian .

Cuppa Coffee Made My Day Brighter !

Save the day . Let's have darker night . Earth Hour 2009 .

When I Lost My Little Brain ..

L I F E is wonderful .

If Being Vain is A Sin .

Word of Wisdom .

Dan Semalam .

Splashh-ed !

The Day I Cried .

Lu pikir la sendiri !

Watch Out !

The Love of Being Green.

Woot woot !

Wanna be Hot?

The day i thought i wanna stop fighting.

So What?

Oh Wow Panjangnya !

Oh You Got Me Hypnotized.

Dream Big .

used DSLR for sale ! sold